2nd labour day*off*

原谅一个人是容易的， 但再次信任，就没那么容易。 暖一颗心需要很多年， 凉一颗心只要一瞬间。 活着，就要善待自己。 别跑到别人的生命里当插曲。 不管是友情还是爱情， 你来，我热情相拥。 你走，我坦然放手！ 不属于我的东西，我不要。 不是真心给我的东西，我不稀罕。 很多时候，宁愿被误会，也不想去解释。 信与不信，就在你一念之间。 懂我的人，何必解释。 我向往这样的心境，不记得失! 有时候，这个世界很大很大， 大到我们一辈子都没有机会遇见。 有时候，这个世界又很小很小， 小到一抬头就看见了你的笑脸。 所以 遇见时，请一定要感激； 相爱时，请一定要珍惜； 转身时，请一定要优雅； 挥别时，请一定要微笑； 因为一转身，可能一辈子也不会再相见了。

POPULAR BOOKSTORE~~

hi everyone....is almost 5 months afte my last update on my blog.... there are few things i want to said about.... ~1st:i left the pain....i left the place and the person i love so much and had growth wth me tgthr..... i left on 12/12/2013...officially left wth the company of my beloved cousin.......but the most dissapointed was he alrdy gv up me on 22/11/2013...why...i really dun understand...and at last he still gvg me a cheque wth an amount almost rm2000.why until last minutes he still think that i follow him for this 2 years..is because of money...i told him a thousand times im not someone tat cheap and i dunwan the money....and tats y...the cheque i still keep until now...i promise myself i will hand it to him face to face afte one time......i PROMISE....juz now passby one of my new fren blog...it wrotes...‘就是因为我们深深爱过对方，也深深伤害过对方，所以我们会不去最当初的我们’i duno it is true o not...but is so meaning for me...Afte i left thr...i keep on tink..keep on find reason why he wan to do tis...why i wan to do like this....i keep using the positive way to keep tinking for ntg becum more worst....i din hope much now...i juz wish he still will chat wth me even 2sentences..better than he dun do anything when he saw me....i told him when the day i met him bek was the day i alrdy becum a better person...i keep on keep fit nowadays...hope i can do it.....i still remember that day i went out wth his cousin...and i told her this story...she is totally shock bout it...and yeaaa..i told my cousin sister too//i juz duno y...sddnly my tears drop down.....deepest inside from my heart??do i still love him??or is it because i alwiz tink tat y afte i do so much..but i dun get my good revenge????wat happen to me????where is the problem....???on one nite me,cousn,n his fren....(tis world are so small bcz his fren was my cust n we met at popular)i fetch him bek to his house which is above my shop...tis half year i dun brave engh to go tat area bcz i dunwan myself to get pain n tink bek wat had hpn.....and tat nite i went thr...i saw thr are many cigarrette around the floor>>..doesnt him alrdy stop smoking???or tat cigarrete does not belong to him?? i am wondering....n i juz left a paper thr...hope they get blessed...and it was great bcz some of the ppl thr still remember who are me...im relli miss every moments we spend thr...i relli miss it....and i relli miss u.......how are u??? ~2nd:start on 1/4/2014,i start wrkg on popular bookstores....as an admin....first was so pity...it was such a hurt for me....the ppl who is teaching me are juz like me,....juz like how i teach ppl.....and i keep askg myself...is it bcz last time i treat my staff too bad...tats y i gt my revenge now......????errrmmmmm...maybe yes....and sddnly i tink that once upon a time i told my boss b4...'ntg is easy at the beginning' haha....now i know wats the meaning.....it is easy to say the word...but when i reli feel it...i juz cant take it.......but i told myself...afte tis everytg will be ok....but still thr was an aoh...treating every1 very nicely...told me tat in this world ntg is perfect rit??i said ya...and everytime when i make mistakes...he will told me...tats is how we learn ...new things....i know im so blessed to hv ppl teach me...n im still behave so rude to the ppl who teach me..i keep on reminding myself....and now...it is getting much better...and im getting much blessed bcz when i get ppl mumble thr was some one who back me up...thank you very much to them..however,this is juz the starting...have see afte a few months...sometimes what we see are not wat they think....i will be much more careful.....and thr is a funny guy in the bookstore...erm..can say tat evry1 was funny in there...haha...but untill today only i realize...maybe face expression thy are looking funny...but behind...thy have a lot of complains...juz like today..i get a phone call from a cust complain bout us...and afte tat i listen to complain from one of my collagues.....only i realize....this world is not tat easy.....ok,bek to tat guy..he is the one who someimes will fetch me bek to home...all was start from him when he ask me to stay even hvnt finis work..than yi hong tell him to ftch me bek...evrytg was juz start like tat......even he said wanna brg me go work on morning..but is too early lo.........and until tat day i cry in front of him...he told me....家人是最好的，离家出走是一件很傻的事。。。thx for ur advice na...but my family was not like tat...and he even tell me wat he did for himself n the family afte a few days....he ask wat hpn until now..thx god...hv someone will tc bout me.....but 不是每个对你好的人都没有目的的。。。。。im relli sked to live in tis world...ystdy i work wth thm until 11pm...my manager asked me to go bek...bcz late nite alrdy...haha...thz every1 thx GOD....i juz wan to live a simple life like tis......its enough for me..=D WHY HUH????when i start to come over to work...evry1 is leaving??haizzz...especially is jing min...afte u left who wan to company me to eat leh??? T_T sad ahhhh.... ~3rd : famlily was a very headache things for me...as i said...im very tired to keep preserving this relationship if it is keep on broken everytime when afte i preserve it...so,i make decision to gv up...and u all juz do la watever u wan to do...i DON CARE ANYMORE!!!he told me‘做回自己,证明给他们看’ well wat he said was right...wat i did all tis time oso i din selfish like you all...NEVER!!but u alwiz juz knw how to said i selfish..now u open ur eyes n see who is the one selfish geh...!!now u see....when i start to bek wth my fren...i know u all will start to tink something more than that...i know u all very care bout me..but tis is not the way lo......u wan to care bout ur son..u tink ur sonis more important than you...??i dun care....but juz dun let me know tat u all think more than wat i do....its unfair plz!!!i dun gv any hope on this family anymore bcz i find out that every1 is selfish only.... ~~nowadays,untill 11pm..my battery will automatically kong...duno y so tired..i enjoy doing this work....i dun care how is the salary or wat im doin(muz be aceptable la)i see the environment and wat i learnt more than those ppl who only look at salary...NO.....I will keep stand on myself.....im not some one that o anything oso bcz of money plz.......im very happi to make new frens at bookstore...i hope everytg is ok.....GOD...thznks for so much u do for me..althou i can consider to be happi now..but in deepest y heart im still hope ah foo will forgive me..he will be my life biggest regret...i know i should not hurt him that much........im so sorri :-/ hmmmmm....today i found out something n i wan myself to stand wthin a distance wth him since everytg are still under control....... GOODNITE EVERYONE AND I HOPE I WILL HAVE SOLUTION TO SOLVE ALL THE PROBLEM.....SANZ ****~原来了解我的人从来都没离开过我.....im so blessed to have a fren that known for more than 10 years..i hope our frenship will be counting on and on and on....im blessed to have u in my life....=D****

2013=>2014

~its such a long time i din update my blog alrdy....today is duno how many days how many hours how many minutes how many second we been apart.....but all i wan to said is im still feel so sad,hurt and even guilty....i reli dunwan to forget u...i dunwan to hate u n i dunwan us to becum stranger....its such a long time i din heard ur voice scolding me...talkking wth me...this is more painful than die....im reli so blur now...i did not know hw to do...i wont take ur money...n i dun hv any money to celebrate cny tis year... this is first year i go thru cny like tis...... ~however,u get tgthr wth meeling was a reality....and tis reality can maintain how long...i reli duno....do u knw i hate those church ppl???y thy have to brainwash u until u gv up me....?Foo,i juz wan to said..no matter wat...i wont walk any step far away.. juz like the time i started to know u....i wont leave u...do u know when kelvin cum out n try to brainwash all of us...u are the one who save me bek....n tat time u reli be wth my side n support me....i duno y i din save u!y i dun realize abit early?maybe if i realize it n let u know..mayb i can tel u...or ask sumone to help bcz even i tell u..u will juz tink of the church ppl.....u reli help me too much in my life....other dun remember nvm...but i will remember it in the rest of life....as i said i will let my children know all bout it...tats is y i reli duno how to hate u....no matter wat they said....i wont hate u..i will wait the day v bek to fren..... ~in tis one month...i keep remind myself...all he do like tis perhaps is juz his plan to let me hurt all at once...he still care bout me...he still helping me...he do all tis is juz because he wan me to stand up n becum the real me....i do not know wat is the point...but every day i keep telling myself tis....i wont let him dissapointed....but u be with meeling is anthr stories...y u hv to lie me???u can juz tel me u alrdy hv anthr gf....u do not hv to tell me u wan to be alone.....when i find out..im relli shocked do u know???!!!!!i do not know wat u r doin nowadays....mayb u r heppily be wth her...mayb u juz go on ur life?? do u know how suffer i am everyday??im not brave enough to walk out to see the world...always u will help me to go thru every difficulties...y tis time u dunwan help me!!??WHY??i felt so stupid tat im the one who try so hard to make the relation btwn u n jason to be bek normal....but now im the one who destroy it myself...i alwiz tot tat y u wan gv othr to destroy our relation by urself????WHY?? ~everyday i juz hope there will be the day everything tat will be fine....i alwiz tell myself i dun care whthr can be wth u o not... i juz wan u dun leave me...help me in all the matters....i dun know wat u r thinking now..mayb u tink that im the evil..i dun even appreciate ur good deed to me...no its not....i will forever remember it...n pay u bek one day..i hope u wait me...i hope u dun hate me....and i hope u dun gv up me plz.......wtht u ....i reli duno hw to survive........ ~all ppl juz said the same.....if not bcz of kelvin all tis wont hapn until like tis...u also told me bout it??dont u remember??? i duno y u hv to blame me wth all the wrong....i tell myself nvm...bcz one day u will wake up n realize me again....you told me tat without me at shop u live more happily...i dun even know tat is truth or u juz wan me to gv up....but all i wan to tell u is..i dun heppi at all...i juz can keep on regret y tat time i muz argue wth u....y im so stupid....??????if i left on september tat time..mayb all wont becum like tis le....or u are planning to chasing me out from the start???everytime u wan to chase me out..i heard from ur mouth i do not wat to do..im realli hurt until i duno wer could i find a place to let all my tears go.... ~now alrdy 2014....but im still crying..all those memories...we have...can u reli juz leave it like tat??no matter wat it is...i will alwiz remember the first word u told me those time...u said no matter wat hpn in future 'im ur best worker'!! foo....i miss u

U hurt me deepest

07/09~yesterday was another worst day for me..how cum u can shout at the road side wth me!!??do u know how hurt i am now?i ask u dun fight at roadside but u dun care bout it...u said u gt no wrg at all..u use a rude wY to talk to me is no wrong..u ask me whether i gt take u as my boss o not..now i wan to ask u bek..if i dun take you as my boss..y i shud do so much...do u knw money is nt evrytg!!!izit NOT!!!!the boss tat i known last time is nt like tis..he wont take the word 'boss' to tlk wth me!! Man,do u know u hurt me the deepest yesterday nite?i cry out loudly..y i shud becum so stupid..i had never been tis cheap before!!u juz gv me one word of sorri without anymsg..do u ever feel guilty of wT u did ??do u ever tink to drop me a msg..?do u ever tink to solve the problem btwn us?do u want our relationship bek to a STRANGER point?i know u choose her but does it means tat u can juz throw me a way like tat??!! i miss u...i miss those days where v r heppily tgthr..u said u wan overcome it wth me..is tis the way u did?? Wat do u wan from me??why u hv to make me wait for ur msg evrynite? Ur sori cant heal anytg...do u know the moment v arguing...i juz wan to move forward n hug u..to stop all of our fight..i dun wish to argue wth u evryday...

thx old man

3/09/13~thx old man...bcz u stil accompany me talk in middle of the nite...it is afte 188days i waited for tis moment..u said tis is a miracle...for me..perhaps is..or perhaps..not...yea,im so angry bcz u all did smtg bhnd me n wtht letting me know..do u knw the feeling of a stupid whn u being ask ques and u duno bout anytg?i do nt wan anytg to let thm knw bcz i dunwan to ctrl me anymore.. i know u think of my future n for my goods..but did u all tink whther like tat i can be hepi??i realli hope u all wont force me anymore plz..i juz wan to wrk heppily bcz anytg worst hpn... however,im heppi tat listen from u said tat u try to communicate wth my side ppl...i hope u can cont it.. ~today,thx for gvg me a very long speech but i still dun listen to u..im sorri..i jz wan to mke decision by myself like wat u say,i wanted to convience u all tat ntg wrg wth my decision..i dun agree tat hv a cert gt any wrg if nt wrkg at a big company lo..y cant i alwiz choose the things i like..?i saw u throw ur fon today..doesnt it hurt??im reallli sori bcz smtg i feel like im so useless..u gt alot of problem but i cnt help at all..so,i jz hope tat u will let me knw if u hv any problem..i still can be yur ears..im heppi tat u say u wil fibd a day cum out wth me..thx so much..hope ntg will hpn beforetat day reach...ohh ya!!tdy i lose..evry friday sure sntg hpn..i try my very hard but...haizz..im so sori....boss,i realli dun hope to leave tat plce...can u dun ask me go away?

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06/07/2013

~firstly...heppi bday to myself.. :D im 20th now...im getting older now... :p my frens was busy today so....they are not here to company me..but it doesnt make so much dissapointed bcz..stil gt ppl clbrate wth me at shop... thx so much for the celebration <3 tis is the 3rd celebration at shop..althou i do not know whther wil hav the 4th time celebrate wth thm o not...but all i can know is...im suprisingly heppi today..althou u did not make ur promise got abit dissapointed...i will wait for it ...i hope u didnt throw it away...half of it are sad...bcz the kids are stop frm wrk...alrdy..no1 wil company me talk anymore..i will miss her alot of coz..my hope are still the same..... ~i wan ppl or things tat i njoy with will stay wth me...especially U ~i wan bek my work and my family life...n more celebration wth thm... ~i hope tat business will get better and evry1 will be healthy... ~lastly,i hope tat bastard will get his revenge and all bad things will get out from me n you.....

im so sad

I'm very sad tdy..bcz I found out one more thing..the car..u borrow frm her...u dun even tell. Me...I was hoping u to tel me without I askg...u hv changes alot...u know??I dun like the nowadays's u...u r so much dffrnt...y u chges until like to gv up everytg...like...u gv up me..u gv up 38...but y nt her...or the sabah thingy??izit bcz u owe her too much...or u did sumtg to her??? I doesn't so care all tis but y u stil can cntct wth her..ur aunt n evry1...but I cnt...u alwz said I like to blame u...but do u care bout me??like tdy..last time even if I said dunwan eat..u will stil buy food n force me to eat...bt tdy..evn I eat o dun eat...u oso dun care. I dem hate the feeling whn I hv no time wth u...cnt eat wth u nvm..bt how come tat side u go eat wth othrs ...??!!haizzz...everyday I'm nt heppi..bt u dun even ask one wrd..n let me kep on sad...I juz wan u to care bout me....last time no matter.wt I said u wil find a way to hlp me solve....but now u even said u hv no comment bout wat I said...do u knw tis is so fuck!!!!!!!! all I wan is a table talk..I onli hv less thn 1month time..I knw if anytg hpn to ur report....I wil keep on quiet..bt I'm stil wil be so saddddd.... Man...wer is my line doll??can u gv me as a bday present for all..?? the whole set....??plzzz... Wer is.ur fighting spirit gone??izit u alrdy gv up all so tat now u r keep on goin pray until miracle hpn??last time whn I wan to gv up..u ask me wer is the 38 spirit....now...y u hv to gv up...if like tat can I juz leave here..??bcz I oso wan to gv up....I'm so tired.... Plz..I jz wan u to spend more time wth me b4 I leave...I jz wan u to care bout me.... althou sumtimes I still heard bout tat gurl...n I gt sad...I was hoping u will stand by me n prompt me...I juz wan a word frm u tat saying u won't leave me...gv me the confident...

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~sanz plz...dun cry...dun sad....ntg worth u to sad.....its a very natural thing....thy are cousins....u r juz a human tat do not hv any relation wth thm...both of them!!ok!!!she did ntg....she still can get his care is a very logic thing...how??u regret tat u did so much of thing??!!i told u na..dun put too much effort..y dun listen to me.....padan muka la now....u cry for wat now....u cry for wat...!!jz shut up la.....world alwiz is like tis...wont treat gud ppl wth gud thing....if u tell him tis prob...do u tink he will care??no!!noone will care bout u!!the most painful thing is,..u r the one who totally so fed up!!but u stiill hv to look at ur hp screen n pujuk tat ppl to be happy...wat a world is tis???!!!!!!is it fair for u...??she is so cheering over thr ....u are crying alone here...wat a joke....who wan to care bout u!!!wake up la sanz!!!!

~im totally speechless now.....y shud i so sad.......alwiz they are the most important ppl to u especially ur gf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!IM JZ NTG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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~i knw...sumtimes i gek u until u can die.....but soorrryyy lo...i juz making a joke...u dun alwiz so serious can ma??haizzzz........die..lo...die...lo....whatsapp cnt use alrdy..hw can i connect all over the ppl thn!!!0.oahahahahahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!especially u!!!!hope the thing will recover bek lo.....one more week scol gonna reopen...my old life gonna cum bek..but alwiz....holiday juz like started yesterday .....
no matter wat...holidayssssssss...i will miss u.....

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~one more week goin to start bek scol...bt for me...is juz still yesterday oli strt holiday..../.\ y holiday pass so fast....but could be ok la..cz tis hldy nt tat bored....n i found tat every nite i gt bek to home..afte eat n taking my bath....i got ntg to do except tv n comp....but tis sem break i dun spend more time for comp....or even drama...bt i spend more time on sleep..sleeep...sleeeppp...n sleeppp....is was juz a nice activity....if my mum din keep on   mumble n  mumble.....-.-....its ok...i know whn strt scol 4months will gt no days to sleep...=D
althou will afraid the timetable wil disturb my work...but tis time i nt tat sked dy....jz duno y..bt tis time i hope can c the timetable more fast....so tat i could plan to go ponteng...hahahahahahaha...hope so la...but still i hope my result will be gud...

~today oli i knew tat the reasoni forget bout the raya stuf..is bcz i gt to scream out all at tambun...now  whn think bek i will found it is funny too!!haha...well...all past is juz let it past....i juz duno y he everytime...i oso duno hw to tell...ysdy oli talk bek ..i miss tat..u knw??i guess he wont knw bout it....bout the merdeka...i cnt gt to ipoh...at first i tot...juz left wthout inform him...but y evrytime at last...i gv up...duno for who..myself??for him??or for my job??althou i juz veli sad enough for tat day....then.......duno y he sick o stress tat day...the moment he slam on the table....i reli reli get dem shock...in my mind i juz tinking.....wathpn??my bro ask y i juz go n ask whthr his hand hurt...haha....im not angry cz he ask me to do thing...bt i juz duno y everytime u moody can u dun put ur attitude to us!!!  especially whn v duno even one shit thing...except ur gf n ur mum.....or izit u tink tat u r the one paying us so tat u could do like tat......fuck man......thr is juz two ways...v could listen to ur problem  althou v cnt solve it if u willing to share it..bt i knw tis is impossible cz the person who u wanna share is juz her....2nd ...u can do wtever u wan...bt juz plz dun put it on us...v are not toys......talk bout toys...i reli juz dem fucking hate him y everytime whn his sis exist he will treat me like his doll...push me away to his sis.....btw,his sis dun like to fetch me too...dun treat me like urs pet man..i could accept if u told me u cnt bring me..n think myself hw to go bek...i juz cant accept...y sjould u throw me juz  like tat ...or am i disturbing the time u wth ur gf......??????tats y...the next day.....i ask my dad to fetch me...coz im enough pek chek...!!!!!argggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!whn u gud in mood u cum to tlk wth me...ok..im happy wth it...but i juz duno y i dun tl him d truth........mayb i,m too sked cz on merdeka tat day..i was juz joking...seriously i was juz joking.....y he wanna gv a big  face n put all d vacancy outside..tis oso one of the thing i hate!!!n u still yell at me tat u could find othr person if i cnt wrk..heellloooo!!plz rmbr ur word!!!!i knw...tis world no one said cnt live wthout who rit?????u tink v dun care bout u??even ur sis could ask me bout u.....r aya was anthr long story.......i juz hate y he wan to rampas all my plan for holiday....especiaaly the laptop....no matter wat...for u,ur mum,gf,n them are most important for u...afte tat,whn i look at d laptop i will think bek of tat noon...i sit inside the car...im crying..bt i still hold for it....i cnt beleive u could said like  tat tome....u wan take bek the laptop.......i begin to think...y shud i do so much..is tis all worth...y shud i care so much whn he dun even    care bout me.....my feeling.............althou inside the car his voice touched my heart abit...my tears juz wan to run down from my eyes....u didnt knw bout it.......ever ytime u guess wt im tinking.....but tis time im not goin to let u guess anymore...in d next day i still help him to paste the paper....one more time i gv up,...duno y everytime i angry wth u....y couldnt it be long abit..y i still wan to help u...im juz a stupid shit...y i wanna help him!!!arrrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
SANZ:RMBR!!!!!!MOST IMPORTANT FOR HIM IS SHE  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! N U R JUZ NTG!!!!!!!
im learning....i knw..im learning to accept the fact...n im learning to let it go.....im learning not to care so much....im learning how to leave from him....and from the job tat i love so so so much................thr is juz too much sad n happy memories for me.......  :')

~什么时候开始冷淡。。我怀念以前一起聊天的晚上。。。。你永远都不懂。。。afte u bek frm sabah...u told me hw gud is sabah...is tat sabah tat gud for u...if ur mum is wrking thr....i tink u alrdy very early move to thr izit???is her tat important to u???

~finalli u asked me y so many days i din company u to breakfast.....im glad to hear tat....reli happy to hear tat...=Dyesh...im angry wth u...my mum even advice me..no use argue wth u...but i juz angry..ntg can do...n u asked y my dad cum fetch me tat nite..i juz reli wan to tell him bek..y u asked me to go ur sis car tat nite....i knw u r sick...bt i juz duno y i so pek chek......><"""""""" today finalli i waited to go company u breakfast...from 10 i waited till 12...without any col or sms.....everytime..go work...or anywer..u r the person who i wont sms o col...but juz waited....i waited till 12finalli u told me u cant cum..i dun have any angry bt juz dissapointed...y cnt u inform me lerrrrrrrrr.....so dissapointed....dissapointed till i go eat myself......hello man...be time abit la....if tis man was my bf....from early i alrdy kill him man......


~hmmmmmmm.......my mum  found a job finalli....hope she is ok...n hope  he forgot me tmr n i no need go work....xD i juz hope...u dun be alwiz moody....i knw u care us more thn v care bout u...bt plz knw tat no one of us tat din care bout u.....i knw.....our's care are never ever ever will be more gud thn hers......
one thing i hope u would knw is tat...i hate waiting especially waiting those person who i reli waited for it... :') now,i juz miss those nite moments v wa tghtr....y u hv stop it???????if reli wan me to give up......haizzzz....i dunwan to said the word out..im still coward for the fact....SOORRRYYY...:'(

~nitez everyone....tomorrow wil be a brand new day...oh ya!!!today no more raining..happy for tat!!!=D
i hope tmr  will be the same....n i will keep learning to keep my distance frm  ............  

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~haiyayayayaya...everytime i look tis blog i juz feel wanna cry...coz tis is oli the place i could cry out...time are passing so fast....now alrdy sept....and my holiday is goin to finish duno how many more days...bout 2 weeks gua...when scol started i knw it will be a veli veli bad day...........i dun like it...so,better enjoy the holiday now...but nt reli njoy la....wthout anything special oso...except bek to ipoh tat hari raya time....

~sept duno is a gud o bad beginning...all thosee are bad things happen...the raya thingy i alrdy forgot bout it...luckily i could search a fren who can listen to my stupid stuff...but gt sum sentence she send to me are very useful like 'ppl alwiz care for the ppl who dun care for them'this all those sentence reli make my tears drop...i stil remember tat nite..tat day...i cry foe a whole nite..cry until im tired n sleep tat nite...evrything he did is truly very logic bt im juz duno so pek chek lo.....but my fren told is very truth ...is not worth i put myself in all those stupid trouble.....she told me tat is a nature....ppl alwiz ignore ppl who care for them...
'no one is perfect in tis world,.....high expectation will bring high dissapointed...'tis is a very sad case..haizzz..tat nite de thing i dunwan to repeat it anymore...all i remember is d moment inside the car his voice reli got touched me some...i felt...haizzz...juz very......n he explain me....all i can do is listen...bt luckily i could hold on my tear.......

~anthr thing is on merdeka day i was juz reli joking tat day....reli..i juz din think so much..n i reli hope tat i could go ipoh at that moment ...why???WHY??WHY?y he wan to becum so angry sddnly cum n scold me
!wat i did!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
today more pek chek..if dunwan bring me u tel me!!dun push me away to other ppl/....i feel myself is a toy/....u knw wat is toy...!!reli wtf la today!1!!!!!!!!!!!

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~哭了出来。。。真的又累。。又舒服。。。连戏也没心情看了。。。好想睡觉。。。

pek cek!!!>

~不想讲话的话就别来找我！！mcb!!!!!我很dulan ahhhhhh!!!!!!你很幸运。。你烦有人跟你一起烦。。你忙有人会去关心你。。！！！你的所有的心情都有本事影响一个人！！！不高兴 的时候就什么都可以不理。。好的时候什么都可以讲完出来。。！但我明白人都是这样！！！为什么就是你。。我偏片就很不爽。。。我都不明白跟你做将多做么！！你一点也不领情!!除了给我工钱。。你可以领情一点吗。。！！我真的不想再将辛苦下去了。。我真的不知道要怎样去面对你！！我好累。。。我好想不干了。。！！我连一个想关心你的理由也轮不到我。。！！为什么我还要留在你那里！！！。。。我真的真的。。好痛苦！！！！！

 i have been tel myself a thousand million times do not write bout u in tis stupid blog n is juz wasting my time coz  i don even worth a person tat can even ask how good are u........!!!!!!wat the hell i reli crazy bout tis.....i  duno y still can stay thr...!!i juz hopw i wan to RESIGN NOW!!!!!!!!y the whole world ppl oso like tis!!im reli tired enough of u........y........i hvg exam...doin revision..i knw im too stress ...y watever u do will mke my mood chge wth u!!!watthefuck!!!!!!i reli hope tis feeling is juz a 错觉。。我真的 好希望这是个错觉。。！！我不知道我几时会忍不住！！u said wan bring me sumwer.....i reli dunwan to go if u go wth thm i dunwan to be like a toys/!!!i dun like the feeling juz like tat nite...!!these things are keep on repeat repeat n repeat....wat the heck!!!!!how can tis thing re[eat so many times..if it happen again i wont never ever go wth u anymore..........!!!!!!!afte i finis my exam im goin to paybek!!!!!!!!u njoy ur day wth them la/!!!i dunwan to be kacau daun o toys anymore....i give up on u i reli giv up!!!!!!I RE;I HATE Y wan treat me like tat tat nite...juz now....n tat day...i juz wan to ask how r u...but i cnt even gt the ans..i knw....u alrdy tell thm...for me....tell o no tell is juz FINE..........

I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>

WEISHENME为什么！！为什么！！我连关心你的及格都没有/！！！我领原放弃我喜欢的东西。。。也不要看到我自己受苦。。。！！！！i reli duno how to describe my feeling now..i know u gt thm...so im gvg up  now............plz dun do smtg mke me fells sucks anymore!!!!!i reli scared one moment i will said the word out......................i juz waiting for them to cum now..thn is my time to REST!!!!!!!!!

可以做自己喜欢做的事情。。真的很开心！

~我可不可以希望那天永远都不要到来。。因为我真的真的真的真的很喜欢我在做着的东西。。我只想过这种简单的生活。。可不可以让我选我喜欢做的工。。让我选我想要走的路。。我真的很难想象。。如果那天真的到来了。。我们会变成。。什么样。。他们根本就不懂我是有多么的不舍。。人次总。。还是要分开。。我只是不想也不要分开。。其实到现在我真的还不清楚。。我到底要的是什么。。？要继续走还是。。转个弯。。去选我喜欢做的事情。。救命啊！！！我真的没办法了。。。。
有时候真的会后悔为什么当初不好好想清楚。。天。。请你一定要帮我，。。我只想做我先在做的东西。。其他的我都不想做。。。:(


today duno y im so stupid....stupid until duno how to said...i have done two of the stupid things an d at last i din said it out too...its too ridiculous man...!!next time i shud practice to not pay too much attention when im selling sumting to cust...tis is my weakness ....!!while the cust try to take away my attention...i will forgot everytg...for wat have i did,....dem it man!!wont they feel fuck when they juz take sumting n run away/..damn it!!!i have to keep practice practice n practice..i know..... :( 
i had to promise anthr thing is next time i will reli protect my phone...car....laptop n everytg else..i reli never meant to hurt them.....i will try to protect it..plz believe me....n  will learn how to talk....ahhhh...y thr is so many things i have to change it!!!
thought i can have a nice week next week coz i oredy planned everytg to replace n all tat...but so sad tat i still have presentation on next fri..im so sad to hear tat man...reli so sad....im glad tat my fren finalli cuming bek from pinang!!cant wait to see her .....i reli miss them so much n sumtimes i would think tat is so gud if v r still tghthr...=D
if tis world everything can take money than gud lo....coz i juz have too much of thing tat i havent buy lo...haizzzzzz.......afte so long i still have to tell him tat sorry if sumtimes i make trouble to u...i know..i alwiz did it...hmmm..n thx for everytg....没有了那里就好想我生活中却少了一样东西。。所以我真的很不想离开。。 :'( fews day more doc gonna leave us duno for how long but i juz wish to c him bek before convo...without him thr ntg to laugh n eat d.hahaha....tat dayi heard from radio tat jane not goin to be dj anymnore...sddnly i felt like crying...she had been working thr for 4 years....its so sad for her to leave juz like tat....i only work for one year and the half...i alrdy cant imagine wat will i do if i leave tis job..although sumtimes i reli wan to leave when thr is a quarrell time...i know i have find a place tat i never laugh until so how i wan to laugh...laugh until the max..except than in front of my family....anyway,no point to think so far coz noone will know wat will happen n noone know.....其实你真的 会在意吗??

about my fren....now i understand is too hard to find sum fren tat to silly with u ..not only laugh wth u but also cry with u...i do not want to care to deep n put so much attention to them n him,...becoz..in the end u wouldn't know whether thy reli care for u o not.......they already from early forgot about me...so no point i jealous.....if one 'sorry' word oso u dun wan to said it out and juz like is ONLY OUR fault...its fine...tehy both can but i cant lo.......

tis year bday wish is juz same as usuall....i wish for the same thing but i know its impossible to happen..but at least let me have sumone to sara me la...xp haha ....life is too hard to walk....i know...

虽然又老了一岁。。可是还是很期待。。。我们一起来倒数六天！！嘻嘻。。=D
happi july everyone!!i love u mum...dad..... <3

LIFE

~~mannnnnn.....my days have been so much stucks n bz man...........week 7...8....9......till exam assgnmnt....

but assgnmnt thx to my geng...i reli love them so much......bcz i no need do aniting for eat...hahaha...reli thx them....ler....

~ ~ yyyyyyyoooooooooo....today giv ppl scld summore....feel so hurt wan leh...i duno y la...i wont feel angry wan.... :'( yali went haapppy holiday dy....juz left me alone thr... :'( not oli her ....even dc oso goin to move dy...every sat now no more fast food....no more jokes..no more help...no more listening them to merepek thing.....haizzzz.....aneway...GOOD LUCKS TO U GUY still wan go for one yr wor....haizzz...afte one yer i oso duno wer to go dy lo.. :'( keepg said tat bored ..bt inside me juz wan to said..ni hai you wo ma.. :p whn i ask hm to go thr every weekend...hw much i wan to said..ni laopobushi zai na bian ah!!!haizzz...stupid la...cnt do like tat laaaaaa...i tink in tis one yr v got ntg to eat dy la.everything hav to be xi guan de la... :D.....today i know i becum very stupid i becum more lembap duno wat the heellll laaa!!!im sooo stupid mannnn!!!shud need keep practice ...practice...n practice!!!!

~~juz now i learn a new bad word in hakka .....haha...dem nice n shun the word........hahahaha,....wat they told is reli true..almost a year i worked thr...but i still need to learnt how to talk....need to work like a dog to talk ler.....hAIZZZ....but i juz will lawan the him oli...but i duno he let me win ahhh...or reli i win....hahaxxx...but sorry la...everytime i do fault ..u scold me..u still need wan cum to me...sorriiiiiii.....reeelliiii sorrriiiiiii....... :(

~now oli i know tat every family will hav their own story....even my shop thr....every day i heard their story.....happi...sad...or...angry............sorii if sumtimes i din listen to u...sorii tat sumtimes i talk so loud to u....i promise myself i will learn n learn n keep on learning....but im very confused wat im doin now izit worth for it??can i trust.....

~~GOD...plz bless us...i love them very much include 'them'..... <3 <3

fuck!!!!!!!!

~wat a cibai fuck day ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!got a human tat wont do mistake in this world mehhhhhhhhhh.........!!!!!!!!!!ma cho hai......dun let me c the 2 gurls summore im gonna kill them....!!!i cnt understand myself im angry wth him or wth tat three indians gurllll....fuck la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!i know is my fault but u need like tat or not oh......one wrong close up all my goods la.....i now oli know the meaning n today i experience it........ok la....u r the BOSS rit...wat else i can said...ntg i cpuld teelllll...wat the fuck......i cnt blame anyone...reli i cant blame....next time i rather dun do anything......dun care anything......belahhhlaaaa... i wan keep my distance....i wan leave....!!!! ~trust??my fren ask me to trust u wor??can o not oh??i dun tink so lo....haizzzzzz.... im stupid i reli stupid....is my fault y i still wan cry...padan muka la i kena marah...!!y wan cry!!fuck!!im not who oso la....who gonna care bout me....no one...no one...... :'( after tis incident.......... ~wat should i do now???wat feeling i shud bring???i duno y all d ppl are the same... n u oso d same oli.....i juz know in tat moment im reli toooooooo fucking shit sked n angry........n all can i do is my tears keep rolling down.....y i cried...i dun understand la.......last time oso i wont cry.....tis time i duno y....tis time juz let me feel tat its reli a gud choice for me to leave.............till tis moment oli i know...im not important at all!!tats all i know...... ~today is a fuck day....but i dunwan let my family to see it....i muz be strong n he is juz ur BOSS......i will alwiz keep remind myself...'keep my distance'

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~lol...blogger change new look....quite shock.... ~hmmmm...today finnallly timetable release dy....kinda....i duno how to said ....but human rit...dun so tamak la....its ok dy la...i tink so...bt i dun understand y on monday is until 5;30pm lo..haiz.....................but others day is 2pm...2pm...2pm lo.......hmmmm.....i duno la....scol gonna reopen on monday but im not planning to go ....coz my fren all havent cum bek...i neeed to wake up early dy in the morning.... :'( sad la...one month holiday juz past like tat....!!!!arrrggghhhhh11!!!!yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!i juz wan to shout now :'( ~work thr...haiiiizzzzzz....i duno wat to tell la....totallly bad mood...... 我我已经输了一半......另一半我应该怎么做？？？？give up???i try...i try....

reading mind

~yeaaaaaaaaaaa.....u alwiz read wt im tinking....how can u do tat??can i read bek wat u tinking....at least let me win once.....=D
how can u do tat....im totally shock of it.....GOSH!!!!!!
wat u told i listen coz it can make me feel more gud...comfort... :')