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~one more week goin to start bek scol...bt for me...is juz still yesterday oli strt holiday..../.\ y holiday pass so fast....but could be ok la..cz tis hldy nt tat bored....n i found tat every nite i gt bek to home..afte eat n taking my bath....i got ntg to do except tv n comp....but tis sem break i dun spend more time for comp....or even drama...bt i spend more time on sleep..sleeep...sleeeppp...n sleeppp....is was juz a nice activity....if my mum din keep on   mumble n  mumble.....-.-....its ok...i know whn strt scol 4months will gt no days to sleep...=D
althou will afraid the timetable wil disturb my work...but tis time i nt tat sked dy....jz duno y..bt tis time i hope can c the timetable more fast....so tat i could plan to go ponteng...hahahahahahaha...hope so la...but still i hope my result will be gud...

~today oli i knew tat the reasoni forget bout the raya stuf..is bcz i gt to scream out all at tambun...now  whn think bek i will found it is funny too!!haha...well...all past is juz let it past....i juz duno y he everytime...i oso duno hw to tell...ysdy oli talk bek ..i miss tat..u knw??i guess he wont knw bout it....bout the merdeka...i cnt gt to ipoh...at first i tot...juz left wthout inform him...but y evrytime at last...i gv up...duno for who..myself??for him??or for my job??althou i juz veli sad enough for tat day....then.......duno y he sick o stress tat day...the moment he slam on the table....i reli reli get dem shock...in my mind i juz tinking.....wathpn??my bro ask y i juz go n ask whthr his hand hurt...haha....im not angry cz he ask me to do thing...bt i juz duno y everytime u moody can u dun put ur attitude to us!!!  especially whn v duno even one shit thing...except ur gf n ur mum.....or izit u tink tat u r the one paying us so tat u could do like tat......fuck man......thr is juz two ways...v could listen to ur problem  althou v cnt solve it if u willing to share it..bt i knw tis is impossible cz the person who u wanna share is juz her....2nd ...u can do wtever u wan...bt juz plz dun put it on us...v are not toys......talk bout toys...i reli juz dem fucking hate him y everytime whn his sis exist he will treat me like his doll...push me away to his sis.....btw,his sis dun like to fetch me too...dun treat me like urs pet man..i could accept if u told me u cnt bring me..n think myself hw to go bek...i juz cant accept...y sjould u throw me juz  like tat ...or am i disturbing the time u wth ur gf......??????tats y...the next day.....i ask my dad to fetch me...coz im enough pek chek...!!!!!argggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!whn u gud in mood u cum to tlk wth me...ok..im happy wth it...but i juz duno y i dun tl him d truth........mayb i,m too sked cz on merdeka tat day..i was juz joking...seriously i was juz joking.....y he wanna gv a big  face n put all d vacancy outside..tis oso one of the thing i hate!!!n u still yell at me tat u could find othr person if i cnt wrk..heellloooo!!plz rmbr ur word!!!!i knw...tis world no one said cnt live wthout who rit?????u tink v dun care bout u??even ur sis could ask me bout u.....r aya was anthr long story.......i juz hate y he wan to rampas all my plan for holiday....especiaaly the laptop....no matter wat...for u,ur mum,gf,n them are most important for u...afte tat,whn i look at d laptop i will think bek of tat noon...i sit inside the car...im crying..bt i still hold for it....i cnt beleive u could said like  tat tome....u wan take bek the laptop.......i begin to think...y shud i do so much..is tis all worth...y shud i care so much whn he dun even    care bout me.....my feeling.............althou inside the car his voice touched my heart abit...my tears juz wan to run down from my eyes....u didnt knw bout it.......ever ytime u guess wt im tinking.....but tis time im not goin to let u guess anymore...in d next day i still help him to paste the paper....one more time i gv up,...duno y everytime i angry wth u....y couldnt it be long abit..y i still wan to help u...im juz a stupid shit...y i wanna help him!!!arrrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
SANZ:RMBR!!!!!!MOST IMPORTANT FOR HIM IS SHE  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! N U R JUZ NTG!!!!!!!
im learning....i knw..im learning to accept the fact...n im learning to let it go.....im learning not to care so much....im learning how to leave from him....and from the job tat i love so so so much................thr is juz too much sad n happy memories for me.......  :')

~什么时候开始冷淡。。我怀念以前一起聊天的晚上。。。。你永远都不懂。。。afte u bek frm sabah...u told me hw gud is sabah...is tat sabah tat gud for u...if ur mum is wrking thr....i tink u alrdy very early move to thr izit???is her tat important to u???

~finalli u asked me y so many days i din company u to breakfast.....im glad to hear tat....reli happy to hear tat...=Dyesh...im angry wth u...my mum even advice me..no use argue wth u...but i juz angry..ntg can do...n u asked y my dad cum fetch me tat nite..i juz reli wan to tell him bek..y u asked me to go ur sis car tat nite....i knw u r sick...bt i juz duno y i so pek chek......><"""""""" today finalli i waited to go company u breakfast...from 10 i waited till 12...without any col or sms.....everytime..go work...or anywer..u r the person who i wont sms o col...but juz waited....i waited till 12finalli u told me u cant cum..i dun have any angry bt juz dissapointed...y cnt u inform me lerrrrrrrrr.....so dissapointed....dissapointed till i go eat myself......hello man...be time abit la....if tis man was my bf....from early i alrdy kill him man......


~hmmmmmmm.......my mum  found a job finalli....hope she is ok...n hope  he forgot me tmr n i no need go work....xD i juz hope...u dun be alwiz moody....i knw u care us more thn v care bout u...bt plz knw tat no one of us tat din care bout u.....i knw.....our's care are never ever ever will be more gud thn hers......
one thing i hope u would knw is tat...i hate waiting especially waiting those person who i reli waited for it... :') now,i juz miss those nite moments v wa tghtr....y u hv stop it???????if reli wan me to give up......haizzzz....i dunwan to said the word out..im still coward for the fact....SOORRRYYY...:'(

~nitez everyone....tomorrow wil be a brand new day...oh ya!!!today no more raining..happy for tat!!!=D
i hope tmr  will be the same....n i will keep learning to keep my distance frm  ............