~yeahhh...tis is my first time ever college holiday tat name as 'sem break'....coz is d first time i hvg it....somehow...it's too short for me....juz 3 weeks oli....:((((
first week of holiday had juz pass like tat ....goin thru with d raya day....=D
went bek to ipoh...n work...stay wth fmly.....
~well.....first day of d day i fns my last of shit paper...i straight away went to have a dinner wth my fren...n..my wrk plce...fews day work with a gurl.....she is quite funny but much better la...coz our topic reli crazy.......anthr tg i did was go postponed my ns....settle the unifi .....n my room...still in proces...haizzz....i reli lazyyy to kepp all tat messy tg especially my room n d shop...haiz....give me sum time i wil try my bes....
~then...when raya holiday time....went klcc helpg my sis to search some japanese book....tat day was i felt some waving there...but they all din feel it...so i juz thought like ntg la....then went bek to ipoh...the place i love so much evethough is juz 1 day trip...is reli jamming everywer......next time i sure will get bek....n stay there more longer...i enjoy more ther........compare to last time...kl.reli make me so stress up.....
~nowadays.....i reli duno wat i work n wat i fighting for....i reli wan myself to improve to much more better...i wan quickly finis my studies...quickly go out to search more money n then i can enjoy my life veli...veli dem much....nowadays...every month when i gt my salary...it's equal to no money...duno y...i reli hate myslf...haizzz...alwz mke a wrong decision...bt some how...cnt blame on me....coz...sumtimes oso they force me.....i know tat if i din register to continue my studies...i wiill get more relax now...n i din buy tat stpd fckg insurane tat my mum force me to buy it..!!!reli sooo fuck!!!!i will have more money!!!reli.....!!T_T i hate them alll.....!!!but tat day my granpa ask me to study hard... my fren ask me to study hard...eventhough my god.......din tel me aniting....but i reli hope time could pass back so that i could make a decision again....i hate myself...i reli hate myself..........i got no time for everytg n no money for everything n i hv no1.....for me.......
~i tot tat holiday wud be a veli wonderful days for me...but it doesnt...it make me fel more sadness...more more...sadnes...i cnt fnd nobody to get out wth me.....i miss him more ...reli so stupid bored...even my own bez fren make me fell more hurt...she reli change so much....she wont care for my feeling....she wont care....she change her life ahead her new life....she wont get bek to d pass...even ...not even 1 ting she miss for 1 ting......eventhough is holiday she wont spend eventhough one second wth me....she juz ...juz......get toghthr wth her new life n i hate tat....reli..i reli hate////i know i miss past so much.....sumtimes i hope it can com bek to....cnt u juz comfort me....wat d use for......u got reli no use...reli...one day i totally my bez...bez...bez...fren...coz my hates for her get deeply one day than 1 day.......
she duno who i wan n who i mis...she wont undrstnd.......she reli dun.......
~now i juz hope.....i can find more money....get 1 new bez fren...get 1 ppl who can company me...shopping...watch muvi...joggingg...eating...working...eenthough chatting.....i need sumone...<3 <3......GOD BLESS M E PLZ.....=d
nitezz world...no matter how sad is today....tomorooe still gonna reach....so....forever dun give up......i hope so...:((( i reli miss him right now...::::::::::(((((((((((
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