:'(

~i duno wat happen to me today....so dem bad mood...i ponteng for work....ponteng for school...but i juz sit at home do nothing.....stupid!!wat happen to me.... haizzz...
duno y tat hurt feeling cum bek dy........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................is it bcz of she or sumting else??i duno so stress now...money,exam ,concert....weekend...haiz..........is such a boring day........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................../.\

ntg change.....

~u sucks gurl...u r reli sucks!!!#relimeanit# how cud i dun ever c ur name in my fon afte 2 dec.....3 months....ntg change....u r stil d same....seriously if u broke ur promise tis time...i will never ever contact u anymore....afte her bez frn bek...she was totally dun have me inside her world.....how sad was tat....='(( i found tat my rahman's frens treat me even more 100% better than her...i reli wanna give up dy...i dunwanna keep walking...it's no use if there is only me sacrifice for tis friendship...!!!no use...no use at all....she still dun ever know wat's her wrongs n dun even understand wat i wan n wat had happen....i not gonna forgive her anymore if she broke her promise tis time....!!!

~haizzzzz.....second ting...duno wat wud happen at my job there....1st time work there n they told me a bad news...tat stupid shop gonna shut down...!!f**k wat shud i do now...no1 know my feelsss....tat's 1 small reason y i wanna stay there.....i dunwan to lost a chance to meet him....althou i know the chance was so small....anthr is duno yet gonna pindah wer....haizz...if bt cvs oso better...mayb cn meet thy all thr.....reli miss them so much......i know tat it's not easy n quite 'lucky'to get a job like tis.....but i juz duno how to appreciate it....tomoro summore need jaga stall by myself...dead....god bless me.....=D i hope tat no matter where to move hope it's a good beginning.......

~new year n cny gonna reach soon izit....yewww...my 18th life gonna end soon....=(( sad man...i duno wat i did in my 18th life....dun have a bf...n din fulfil wat i wan...hahaxx....xp......but quite haappy to get know a lot of new frens n learn how to swim....thxx.....so glad to know tat my its no need to make good...coz tat day foa juz only im the 1 who need to make good ....sad nia...!!i hope tat foa wont dail n i stil ned to resit for qs.....i dun wanna fail anymore!!!it's so tired!!!!

life making me so tired....but once v step v cant look beek kkk anymore.....
PS:im reli tired ......

~a tir3d dayssssss.......~

~today is the most hate daysss....1st today have 2 test....sucks!!!did it sucks!!second is v stay there til 8pm....sucks!!reli gg...!!!

~today was 11111......wow....hope everyone will hv a very nice all over tis two month....time had pass so fast...two more months was brand new year again.........hmmmm........1 year had pass.....n nothing change....still nothing change....duno y.......mayb i put too much hope tat sometg thr will change....but same tings seem like hpn again......my frn told me tat he lost his fon.....??wt hpn to him...???drunk..??careless???o......??feell worst tat in d past i was on hs sde....bt nw...no more.... :'( ....no call o msg tat told me wat's hppng n why........reli i miss tat moments much....same ting could happen but y dun same feeling would come back....

~reli hate my frn nwdays....i duno whn oli she could meet me.....she didn't knw how much i miss the moment that v were tghthr ...n i wish i could visit tat place with hr......she stl xun tat d problem is not on him.....but is here...cant she juz keep her promise...i waited for month n month n month juz to c her....but others ppl could meet her whnever thy asked her....sometimes i wonder...who i am to her n i feel likes giving up tis relationship...im tired.....reli tired.... i duno which way i need to walk now....to forget everyting is reli hard for me....n i choose to leave them...but i dun feell wana let go.......GOD.....y .....i duno.....i reli miss him so much....:'(
~在友情里。。如果只是一个人付出的话。。也一样会觉得难受。。趁我还有点尊严时。。。我选着离开。。。

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~first of all....sem2 had begin.....finalli...n most of the ting...timetable are more more sucks than the first sem....haizzz.....reli la...bt it's ok la...coz mon n fri got time to work..iu reli sked if dun hav anytime to work lo.....still ned to said thx god laaa......n now most worst ting is tat day went to register for the coco....i waited til 2am..stil cnt register it...haizzz...wat a joke thn...at last thx to my classmates coz hel me register it on the morning......for swimming...lol....i duno how to swim at all reli!!!but i enter swimming...gila...!!!stil got competition summore...reli babi...!!i duno how to said la....haiz...well everyone gambateh for sem2 ok....oh ya...tat day sem1 result out le....althou i get wat i wan....but i still get wat i dunwan....i failed 1 subject i relli upset bout it...but all thx to my classmates thy r so much nice...... thy told me tat thy will help me n asking me dun cry...haizzzz...i was so touch tat tm n i cry out...bt not reli la...coz tat time mani of them making me to laugh.....althou juz know u all for several months...luv u all.....thn afte take result v went for the buy1 free 1 promotion snowflakes....relli veri satiesfied.....!!!
reli <3 it.....althou i went to pavi bt i din go find him...i din......SEM 2....GAH YAO EVERY1.......I WILL STDY FRM NOW ON.......HMMMMM...I TINK SO....=D

~work there still ok.....jz not much time i spend thr...some times i felt sori...coz everday....some day la...i lepak til veri late oli get bek to work lo.....haizzz.....quite reli thz him coz guiding me n helpg me scold the nigeria ppl...hahax.....xD i wil try my bez to arrange my ting coz i dun wanna lost aniting..........tat day he asked me go for d samsung dinner...i reli wanted ttooooooooo........but.......can i go...??? =D

~tat dya went out wth my bestie...n my bros...tot wanna watch muvi but failed...hmmm.....she jz keep talkg bout his stories..i alrdy found tat i got no more feel so hurt when i heard hs name.......but 1 ting i feel so upset was she still not so care for me...she still care for her frens......haizzz.....i duno wat to tel anymore...im so tired.....i duno wat to do now...my happinness juz for 3months le....afte tat i wont cntct her anymre...cz afte 3months i will not insde her heart anymore........haaiiizzzz.........

~finalli i find out whose ur bro......did he know me...y din u cum to his house anymore.....??y u love tat gurl so much.....till when oli u will know tat a gurl is still waiting for u.....juz for u.......when oli i can forget u...or when oli u will cumbek....???dun let me wait so long can....???waiting the days to meets u.....

~trust......

~trust u....u ask me to trust u for somuch of time u keep on telling me to trust u....trust u...n trust u.......but do i reli can trust u wei....????do u reli worth for me to trust.....???how i wanna trust u when u alwiz broke my heart juz lke tat n u duno wat i wan....u never know i need u the most...u never will know!!!!!!!!!!!
tel me how shud i trust u whole u leave alwiz...!!!alwiz!!!!!.....i reli wanna keeep our frendship....i still love u but i duno how can i trust u........n i dunwan to get hurt...plz.....dun make feel like u r here bt im having nothing at all......

~death.....

~t0day d3m sad o....finalli...timetable sem 2 cum out le...sad dao...i duno how could i tell a word.....sad dao...im tinking shud i go from........sad dao i cant tel him my timetable...haih...sad dao...now oso keep sighing.....T_T god y treat me like tis....now need wait for the result oli.....haih..myb whn reslt cm out time...wl more sad lo...mayb wil sad dao go die le......aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~every tues i need to leave my job.......='((( n every weds ....bek dem late at 6pm...wat d fck....!!!u shud know hw much i love my job..haizzzz.........i duno aaa....tis timetable a...reli can make me go eat shit every month le....no money...no fun.....='(( now jz can 1 step go 1 step.........haih...sad dao................!!!!

~juz now duno who fucker cum heck my fb lo...scared me!!!then i ternampak her bez fren profile again...i duno wat to said.....her sister could accept her but y i cnt..??fuck man!!!!!who is tat galll...???how gud is tat gal huh..!!u all juz knew thm for few months...!!!me???for several years!!!bt juz cnt accept me????!!!huh!!!wat the fuck wei....????!!!i reli upset wth thy alll...my heart reli broke...now...i duno wan col her o not...coz juz now i decide to col her bek..but now i tink no need .la......haih..........='(((

~last week ....fews days...??

~aiyersss...........got fews more days oli wor...i wan die ler......reli so heavy heart to leave tye holiday leh....i not yet go out to play oso lo......now thursday oli leh.....T_T fews more days wan study bek liao...need wake up early.....drive car go study then work.....assigntment...huh!!!!i cant imagine wt will happen...summore is the coco...haizzz...i reli got no confident on how it is.....need competition de leh...i juz fel scared n cnt find sum1 to company me......T_T 3 weeks too short le...god...plz let the time move more slowly plz.....i know i wil fel sad if i leave my work n family again...haizzzz....

~nowadays...i n my fren are playing my bez fren tat i went to ns....hahahahhaa...i feel so hepi when she is finding for me.....!!bt too sad....my dissapearing is juz worth for her sum msg n calls oli...no matter wat i still wanna thx my fren for playing she..i duno how to face her.....reli duno.....she juz spend her time wth me coz her bez fren alrdy went to ns...n will left her for 3months...i reli duno tis type of fren i still need it o not...n she doesn't know...wat i need.....='(((( HOWEVER...I KNOW tat i wont angry wth her so long time.......tat's the problem....

~hmmmmmmmmm....today keep on raining leh...duno y.....sumtimes make me feel happi bt sumtimes sad oso la...coz so mani tings hpn whn raining time.....im stillw ondering how is he now.....???will he begin his new life dy...??i duno....i know tat day will cum but dun so early plz.......haizz....y till now...i still wth u....???i duno...it's extremely cold now......make me tink of so much shit ler....=((((

~3weeks of holiday i duno wat i did....all i can said is my bez fren make me so upset ........n i had learn so much...not so much la..tings at shop...........n tat day went to fren's bday party reli miss them so sos so so so much....<3 <3

~heppi mooncake festivall.....!!!1

~yeah,,,,finalli reach 1 more yeras,....heppi mooncake festival all......=D
hope everyone can gather with their family n get blessing ya....=D

~today duno how to describe...i got a holiday today n went to shi ming house to celebrate her bday n mooncake festival...thx so much....=D
bt afte tat my fren all goin for dinner...i didn't go....bt my mum ndad go....i now realize im alwiz been forgotten.....=((( how sad it is......haizzz.......

~nitez every1....tomoro gonna wake up early.....

~I WANT IT THAT WAY....!!!!!

You are, my fire
The one desire
Believe when you say
I want it that way

When we are two world
Apart can't reach to your heart
When you say
I want it that way

Tell me why
Ain't nothing but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothing but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear u say
I want it that way

Am I, your fire
Your one, desire
Cuz I know, It's too late
But I want it that way

Tell me why
Ain't nothing but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothing but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

Now I can see that we're falling apart
From the way that we use to be, yeah
No matter the distance, I want you to know
That deep down inside of me

You are, my fire
The one desire
You are...

Don't wanna hear you say, yeah eh

Tell me why
Ain't nothing but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothing but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
Cuz I want it that way

Tell me why
Ain't nothing but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothing but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
Cuz I want it that way

Cuz I want it that way...

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~i tink a....tis oso 1 more perfect ting.......lol....duno y the samsung deliver al the phone cum with all same color size....n almost the same function lol...!!!how to differentiate iss.....???i duno.......tis the biggest fear for me....more hard than sejarah when i study time...hahahahaha....cacated.....neway.....one day...a...i will get to know all of u...hope tat day will reach....=D god bless me.....-D

~nah.....saw tis tingggg....???make so dem fall in luv with it.....shud take u togwthr wth me....???xD u r too perfect la....sure u sooo proud rit....every1 in tis world obssesed n praising bout u...how can i decide now....???

~ngeeee.......<3 <3 <3 hope i can take u as mine.....=D

WORK.........family...

~when my sem break cum....work n family had being a important ting for me........sumtimes feel sad y im not inside d house for half day....all the times i spend on workg............bt .....haizzzz....

~sumtimes i juz feel tat y wont i keep mny from the beginning i working...juz a moment...i had work at my first job for 9MONTHS.....OMG....!!!!first job for 9 months....cant imagine it....n my bro had left me about four months...ya...four months......tis 4 months.....reli feel weird for me...coz no 1 i could rely on.....if my bro still here....is how good....i no need to settle everything...n he will help n teach me.....but now.....='((( he is not here.....anymore...how much i hope he could cum bek......

~tat nite i heard the second 'ORDER' from him...i quite blur qhen i heard it....i did....i did learn to be independent...i learn to be better.....but 1 ting is i cant be perfect as my bro.....i feell so scared whenever i be independent........i dunwan...dunwan........but wat can i do...i duno....D: i know juz felt sorry for him....i will try...i relli will try to get more better........

~tat day i get scold...tat moment i reli become freeze....coz....if outside...eventhough my family i will be so scared if they quarrel....now my bro not wth me juz me alone...i more scared...!!!!!!fuhhhhh......my fault duno y i can be tat stupid...hopw i wont repeat it again....n i dunwan to get scold anymore la....so sked leh....!!!waseh....................i cant imagine y .....ntg la......

~nowsadays.....cuming out more n more ting...i reli so confusing for all of tat.....tomoro i will continue to post it...if not my mum would kill me now.....now i juz hope tat sori la if i alwiz do mistakes......haizzz....i duno how to tell.....very sad nowadays......

~al i will do now is...i try to my part to d bez....i know im stupid enough........haizzz...i dunwan tel dy..........

frenship.....

~haiyooo...haiyooo...i duno wat's happening to tis world nowadays....i already so free wthout any stres for some days bt now everytg cum bek.....yweeewwwwww.......

~i saw at facebook says that "a bez fren will walks with u when u r without a world"
nopp.....it's a lie....it's juz a joke....when i ned her the most...where is she...???wth hr frens.....whn i nd sum 1 to tlk wth.....wer is she???her frn.....whn ind sum 1 to company wer were she???her fren......how would u fell if u need ur bez frn to company bt she is wth her frn...how would u feel...if everytime u meet sum1 they will juz ask bout how ur bez fren but not u....n when they meet ur bez frn thy wont ask bout u but thy will ask bout her bf......how would u feel if she doen't contact u even sms u for so long............how would u feel if she care for her new few months fren more than tis bez fren...........how would u feel....???i reli duno...i duno....all i feel is juz drops my tears.........


~how would u feel if she spend her time wth her new frens more than u....everytime when i ned her...she would told me she was wth her fren.....n now.....she will wait til her new frens....leave her then oli she wil have time to meet me....reli WAT THE FUCK!!!!!!


~she duno how i feel til she could hurt me more.....he went to meet a ppl tat i miss so much n hope to meet so much wthout me...!!!!!bt wth her new fren....WAT THE FUCK....!!!first respond i know bout tat is....i cry....reli...i cant stand it any more........i reli neeed her so much....but to leave my pain i had to decide....i chooose to leave her....coz...i dunwan to get hurt anymore........plzz....

~I RELI CNT FND A REAson anymore y i shud stnd by u anymore....i cant find a reason....i know if i leave her...i will need to leave someone tat i love so much b4......i will lose 2 person in juz a moment.......they r playing a important part in me....bt for them....i didn't....im juz ntg.......i feel so sad now...i duno how to face her anymore....how can she did tat.....DUN SHE FELT SORRY.........????='((((

~1st time ever sem break.....

~yeahhh...tis is my first time ever college holiday tat name as 'sem break'....coz is d first time i hvg it....somehow...it's too short for me....juz 3 weeks oli....:((((
first week of holiday had juz pass like tat ....goin thru with d raya day....=D
went bek to ipoh...n work...stay wth fmly.....

~well.....first day of d day i fns my last of shit paper...i straight away went to have a dinner wth my fren...n..my wrk plce...fews day work with a gurl.....she is quite funny but much better la...coz our topic reli crazy.......anthr tg i did was go postponed my ns....settle the unifi .....n my room...still in proces...haizzz....i reli lazyyy to kepp all tat messy tg especially my room n d shop...haiz....give me sum time i wil try my bes....

~then...when raya holiday time....went klcc helpg my sis to search some japanese book....tat day was i felt some waving there...but they all din feel it...so i juz thought like ntg la....then went bek to ipoh...the place i love so much evethough is juz 1 day trip...is reli jamming everywer......next time i sure will get bek....n stay there more longer...i enjoy more ther........compare to last time...kl.reli make me so stress up.....

~nowadays.....i reli duno wat i work n wat i fighting for....i reli wan myself to improve to much more better...i wan quickly finis my studies...quickly go out to search more money n then i can enjoy my life veli...veli dem much....nowadays...every month when i gt my salary...it's equal to no money...duno y...i reli hate myslf...haizzz...alwz mke a wrong decision...bt some how...cnt blame on me....coz...sumtimes oso they force me.....i know tat if i din register to continue my studies...i wiill get more relax now...n i din buy tat stpd fckg insurane tat my mum force me to buy it..!!!reli sooo fuck!!!!i will have more money!!!reli.....!!T_T i hate them alll.....!!!but tat day my granpa ask me to study hard... my fren ask me to study hard...eventhough my god.......din tel me aniting....but i reli hope time could pass back so that i could make a decision again....i hate myself...i reli hate myself..........i got no time for everytg n no money for everything n i hv no1.....for me.......

~i tot tat holiday wud be a veli wonderful days for me...but it doesnt...it make me fel more sadness...more more...sadnes...i cnt fnd nobody to get out wth me.....i miss him more ...reli so stupid bored...even my own bez fren make me fell more hurt...she reli change so much....she wont care for my feeling....she wont care....she change her life ahead her new life....she wont get bek to d pass...even ...not even 1 ting she miss for 1 ting......eventhough is holiday she wont spend eventhough one second wth me....she juz ...juz......get toghthr wth her new life n i hate tat....reli..i reli hate////i know i miss past so much.....sumtimes i hope it can com bek to....cnt u juz comfort me....wat d use for......u got reli no use...reli...one day i totally my bez...bez...bez...fren...coz my hates for her get deeply one day than 1 day.......
she duno who i wan n who i mis...she wont undrstnd.......she reli dun.......


~now i juz hope.....i can find more money....get 1 new bez fren...get 1 ppl who can company me...shopping...watch muvi...joggingg...eating...working...eenthough chatting.....i need sumone...<3 <3......GOD BLESS M E PLZ.....=d

nitezz world...no matter how sad is today....tomorooe still gonna reach....so....forever dun give up......i hope so...:((( i reli miss him right now...::::::::::(((((((((((

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~你永远。。都不会在我心里了。。。我会永远把你放在我回忆里。。。真的不再需要你的原谅了。。。而我也不会再原谅你。。。。不会再为你流泪。。。。忘了你。。。。真的做到了。。。。

~i hat3 u!!!!

~whether u like o dun like.....i dun care bout u...!! coz now im in chrge...!!
u dun like u can leave..!!!i din force u...!!!

~yesterday i do sumting very strictly n i hope i did it rite lo....coz reli not my fault rit....i din take mny frm u leh...stil wanna giv me ur face to c ahh...??!!
if i know...from early i wont take u....it's dem annoying...!!!now juz wait till sem2...it's my time to balas dendam....>.

today....

~everyday juz kep on facebooking...work time fb...home fb..and at kolej oso fbooking...haizzz...duno when oli i wl strt my studies seriously....my mood to do all the works..all gone...reli gone...i jz feel tat so tired...veli tired..i jz dnwan do anitg....jz wana stay by hm...n do ntg.....

~fact is fact..lie is ie....y?y??Y??Y???no matter how much mre time i advce ppl..advce myself..i stl cnt shge!!!!y i stl over u...??god,plz tke hm out frm my mind...i wan concentrate of wt im doin nw.....if stl keep on lke tis...i knw wt wl hpn in future...it's gonna be sooooooo soooooooo sooooo dem worst...!!!

biGGset pAin iN lIFe:

tO sIt fRonT Of tHe peRson
u loVE a loT aNd sHE
iS crYing iN fRont Of u
fOr thE peRson sHE
loVED...:(

i sw in sum1 page.....bt i tell :
biggest pain in life:
to sit in front of the person
U love a lot n he
is happily storying for
for the person he loves.....='(


~sigh!!!!....i walkin bhnd fllwg ur step...u jz duno how i fel....veli pain ting...u duno........i m fllwing u..waitg for u when oli the day wil cum u turn over ur face to me...when oli u wl realize...i hv follow u for a longgggggg time...im almost tired...i sked to lost u...i reli sked tat day wl cm......y cnt u jz chge ur mnd n dun mkg ppl sad.....wt's the reason im stl cryg for u!!!!WTH...!!!i hate myself....
frm beginning til now....cnt u jz 4gt wt hd hpn n tlk as usually we tlk...???im all alone...my frens alwz avice me to 4gt everytg n jz act lke ntg hd hpn b4....althou is easy to o i...bt im jz xbrve engh....i knw..if v gt bek lke last time..i knew d hurt feelg is stl insde d heart...

~GOD....wt shud i do now...i wait no wait wait or dun wait....wait or dun wait y mine tears stil drop for him...everytm whn i wana give up...he wl alwz cm bek to my mind...y ts shud hpn....im alrdy so tired...i cnt concentrate anytg...i jz cnt forced myslf......U ..!!!!!tl me wt shud i do....i luv u so mch last time.....tl tody....y i stl cnt che my mnd...althou u alrdy change alot...alot...!!!

~can u jz accpt a person tat u luv so much sddnly chge into a stranger jz lke u hv nvr known b4.....cn u accpt it??!!!i xundrstnd y u cn chge so easily...bt im stl styg hre...waitg....stl xwan to chge....wt the hell prob wth u...im stl waitg......
jz 1 year.is tat so long time for u???jz a year cn chge u til so stranger for me...!!!!!I HATE U!!!I HATE U!!!PLZ GT OUT OF MY MND!!!FOR WT U STL IN MY MND THOU U ALRDY DUN CARE FOR ME!!!!!!!!!I DUNWAN CRY FOR U ANYMRE!!!!!I DUNWAN!!!!!!!
frm tat minute begin...i knw i shud chge too...i jz waitg whn d tm wl reach...
its so hard for me..................='(((((((((((((( so hard...i miss u alot...i reli blank wt shud i do now......????

8 june 2011........

~fuhhh.....lastly i pass thru my blog...since duno hw mani lg tm i xupdate my blog...
jz y...i hv not engh tm!!!!i hate it!!!my life had chge!!!last tm i was 7am out frm hse thn 1pm or few hours later i wl reach hm!!!bt nw...frm 7am i out thn 8pm oli ..eh..no...is 10pm oli i reach hum!!!wt a life is tis man...!!i hate it....i more prefer to the secondary scl life...i gt tm to ply wrk n laugh...nw..is stl blur lke hell...n hurt like wan to die...today raing...i walk alne frm my klj canteen to my clas...i tot is was so hapi cz i cn run in d rain...but it's not!!!IT MAKES ME FEEL SO COLD!!!!!!!!!SO COLD....i xno y...1st tm i flt the rain cold lke hell...no1 bsde me...i jz wlk as fst as i cn....i xwn to sty in d rain anymre...tat tm i knw...smtg amiss was in my heart...=(((thn i gt cls till 7pm so,i drve alne agn ...so sked cz sky dark dy..thn tke 1 hour oli reach hum ca jam...haha...=D whn jam it rmnd me of my frn..=)

~today i jz had a nice day....when break tm i went cm wth my best frn...well,her frn oso thr bt all were frendly..haha...being enjoy wth thm...ok,jz hv a lunch thr n walk around cm..i jz 1st tm oli visit thr...thx for th brging me go..=) at last thy brg me go segi oso...thn thy brg me bek to tke bus...reli sesat tat kolej..haha...whn wana go bek time..two of thm hug me...haha...so,i jz rply thm bek. n tl bye to thm...today reli hvg lot of fun n 1st tm i tke bus ownself..i hope nxt tm...wl hpn agn..bt jz duno y tat bus go pass thru pavi!!!dem!!i was reli reli reli shock man!!!xno y...i sigh...haizzz....sg.wang,sogo n so much mre plaza i pass by...it's so much hapi for me....

~it's engh i tink i write untl here....im alrdy tired n lazy...wl wrte out more nxt nxt day...=)bout sum1 n sumwer...nitezzzz...

=(

~so long tm dy....today i stl put my emotion as sad.....i oso duno y...today i at shop tm sddnly i rmnd bek sumtg....alrdy 6months.....so fast 6 months passssss.......i waited for 6 months....n stil i cnt gt wt i wan.....izit askg me to forgt hm...??ask me 2 give up...??
6 mnths jz pass like tat ....i xhear frm hm....even xsee him oso....=(goshhhh....how sad it is...sound like.....wahhhh....so fast alrdy 6 months...half yr leh...bt tis 6 mnths not too long la...mayb stl gt ppl gt more thn me rt????haizzzzzzzzzz.....how nw???afte is tl nd go ns for 3months lehhh....anitg cn hppn in 3mnths u knw...no1 can guess...rt??n im worryg...no1 cn undrstnd tis.......haizzz...today...7 of april 2011 oli i knw v hd seperate for 6months....!!!y im stl waitg oh???
god,im so upset nw....help me plz....=(

~today stil a very shit day.....4mnths i wrk...i cry for 2 times...ok laaaa rt???i oso duno y 2day i cn becm so angry...bt i juz feel un fair lo...y tat stupid scol can treat ppl like shit!!!!the whole reli fucking wan laaaaaaa.....!!!i veli veli sad n angry today.....bt stl jz forgt bout it laaaa....cz thy all wnt knw my feelg....reli i tel...thy wont!!!!!thn afte bek to shop li saw my bro n boss...bcm rilax bit dy la...if nt ahhhh..i oso duno wt wil hppn lo..maybe bth of thm...nt jz both of thm...evry1 was shock!!!!includg myself oso shock y i wud do like tat lo....haizzz....=(

~nowadays i fel like my frn r far away frm me lo....she wnt ask bout me...she wont care bout me....wei,i reli need her leh...y cnt she understnd my feelg...i dunwan been treated like usually she treating othrs ppl.....i hate tat lo...!!!!!y i cnt jz be special a bit...bit oso cnt ahhhhhhh....=( tis frn reli made me upset...i jz sked 1 day i wl broke wth hr.....reli sked......

~tat day go tarc thr to passup the form...nw,waiting their rply...u knw wt...i tl every1 i xgo to stdy la....reli every1!!!!!bt thy jz dun belif me....even my boss oso ask me to stdy hard.....haizzzz...my frn tld me tat whn register tm mz pay RM1000++....WTF!!!!whr cn i gt the money man!!!!sucks la...i xwan my mum n dad to worry...1st thy worry whthr i cn entr colllege o nt...nw,thy worrying whthr i cn gt scholarship or nt...worrying bout the money...worry bout tis n ta.....m god!!!1i reli xwan thm to worry la....thn for wat i go stdy!!!i sked if i stop halfway mns how....thy put too much of hope in me....i alrdy felt sori for the spm result dyy........y now anthr ting for me to feel wori..i didn;t go college nvm...for wat i wanna go....i xlike stdy la wei......!!!!now ahhh...except thn shout god...i xno wat else i can shout....GOD.....help me plz...i reli dunwan stdy!!!


~well,my wrk srl goin on as usual...bt tis month sad bit la...coz jason last month dy...i knw nt me oli who sad....my boss oso i tink so la.....=D i xundrstnd y jason like tat ....meybe he tink wrk own bussiness mre better....if me..i oso duno hw to chse...coz 1 is the boss tat reli gud...cnt fnd at outsde dy..1more is his own dad rt????nw....i oso duno wt wil hppn cz im goin to ns....afte bek frm ns...duno whr to wrk....although he said his door alwiz open...hahax...but he duno mayb whn i bek dy he wnt nd us anymre??perhaps laaaaaa....
u knw rt...me....the more i feel comfort....the morei wl feel hard to leave....so,every1 jz dun treat me so gud la...if nt i duno wt wl hppn.......bt nw jz cn...wish my bro luck...i wl miss hm...cz the day wrk wth hm relii fel protected n happpi...hahahahaha....=D if u away dy....i oso duno who to teach me all the tg......n to my boss.....he wl b fine rt???=D
whn i strtd go thr to wrk...he teach me so much of ting leh...tat y i fel like wahhh....tis ppl so nice leh...lol although smtm he wil scold us la...=( bt reli thx la my boss...i knw he jz wan us to be gud rt??i hope so la....=p whn i ask for a part time job at nite...thy all said i gila dy....even hm oso tl lke tat....i wl rmbr wt he tld us,,,,,,=)

~tat all for tonite.....i reli stress nwadays.....n.....i hope i cn gt bek wt i wan.....
gudnites....=)
cheer up...cz mayb tomoro wl be mre better rt...??

=(((((

~aaahhhhhrrrhhhhhh.....now wat time dy!!!!im stl sad for the result lo...!!yyyy!!!!y lke tat??im so upset...reli upset...felt so soriiiiiiii for every1......my mum,dad,bro n sis....haizzz...felt soriii to make thm feel down...soooo sooriiii.....so emo laa.a...thy mz be sad wth me dy now...haizzzzzz.

~jz nw wnt dinner wth frn....fel lke v r hvg the last time lo....cz every1 gonna seperate frm jz nw....i reliii reliii will miss them so much guys!!!!haizzz....n me??? stl duno laaa....stl no mud to tink bout tat now.....my heart reli pain loo...reli....
y no1 cud comfort me ha....i know la.no matter how..now is jz rubbish rit....now all i can tell is sori n keep on said soriiiii.....SORIIIIIIIIIIII....=((( I NEED SUM1 NOW.... i duno til whn oli i wil stp cryg...=((((
SORIIIII GUYS.....SORIIIIIII......

~STL RMBR WHN SCOL TIME V ALL STDYG...ALTHOUGH NOT SO HARD BT I RELI did all the ting n i reli did all tg tat i nd to do.......bt yyyyyyyyyyy......y the ending is like tat huh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=(

~dem mann..the day finalli reach today...so bad larrr...im not satisfied wth wat i get..whn reach hum li straight way cry leh....haizzzz....y ah..??wat hppn..??it's reli out of my expected lo...seeing my frens al happily....be me...sad..real sad...=( now juz cry oso no meaning...but need to thx my sis,bro n ipoh's fren for colling me....

~now,is waiting for ns laaa....n fndg some information of college...no idea reli..my head gonna break now...today actualli shud be a gud day wat.....but jz lke tat..result oso bad my frn oso bad to me...i tot can see him today...bt i cnt....feel so upset leh....tis yr im goin to do smtg like last yr agn...bt i duno it wil wrk out o nt...bt jz pray laaaa.....


~i feel so failed cz i bcm the love messenger agn....haizzz....y la im so gud....whn i nd thm tm i wont hv any1....stpd rt??

y everytm whn i on9.....cnt c u....i stil waiting.......=(

~felt mre comfortable..

~afte so lg xupdate tis blog..nw my life join into d kolej...yea,kolej hd strted n ts is d 3rd wek...d last 2 weks r bored..til d 3rd wek fel mre cmfrt cz sw every of my scndary frn n strt 2 stories wth thm..i jz mis tat mmnt....n hv strt 2 tlk wth d new frns....bt dem much tgs 2 do leh..ysdy i pecah my rekod..i slpt at 4am...thn wke at 7am...nw im goin 2 die..i flt slpy..i tink im goin 2 tke 1 mre coffee lo..T_T..
Ltr goin to ipoh duno 4 wt..haizz...im reli tired leh nw...reli tired...hmmm..anytg else ah??i jz xlke 2 drve nwdys..it so hell danger...fuck la...i reli dun like it!!!!i mz learn hw 2 use d pblic trnsprt ltr...=(

heppi valentine day evry1

～althgh is a late post bt stl wanna wish all....heppi valentine day!!!!.....stil single tis yr..hahax...=p
*dun wori...b hapi whoevr is single sre wl gt their partner 1 day....rit???
Hmmmm...tis valentine special a bit la....working n wth a 'ma lat lou'eat MCD.....=D thx bro.....hapi tg is tis....
Anthr sd tg hpn is i gt scld agn lo....haizzzzz....thn whn reach hum...i cried..i tot i wont bt i did...
~last yr vlntne oso im cryg tis yr oso im cryg...hw sd it is ha!!! whn tink bek lst yr vlntne...stil so sad..i stl rmbr hw hurt m cryg insde d rum...haizzz...bt tis alrdy pass rt???so,xtink bout it la sanzz.....no point....ppl shud look front n xstp at d bek o jz stay thr n xmove......=(
at wrk place gt scld nvm....bt afte reach hm gt scld agn...haiiiyyoooo...m alrdy veli fan ahhh...y gt scolded agn!!! luckily hd cried...if nt im gonna jz die lke tat lo....=( whn at work place gt scolded...luckily stl gt my bro...if nt duno wt hppn lo......
So...tis yr vlntne is juz lke tat la.....hpe wun be lke tis yr n lst yr....=D cheer up....k!!!

hlday strt....=( ???

~today holiday strted....i wont wrk for a week...but is not wat i tink as tat perfect today....i hv dem...dem...dem...bad day.......today......1st is maybe alrdy 1 month i wrk....thn i never eat rice everyday......bt today when i eat the rice...i feel like bluekkkkk......til nite i stil feel like wanna vomite oli.....haiz....jz 1mnth oli lo....make me bcm like tis........yyyyyyyyyyyyyy??????????dem bad mood today....tot cn go do a new hair......keep the room.....thn go buy new year tings....but all CANCEL!!!!!!!!!!i dunno wt's the reason...i relli angry wth thm....y alwiz wanna lie like tat.....alrdy promise thn dun wanna do it...........more worst is i cant fnd any1 to cmpny me.....feel so down...although i went bek to sm today...the place tat i didnt wnt for a long time.....although i went to the phone shop......but i didnt feel happi at all!!!!!!I HATE PPL LIE-ING ME!!!!!!

~HAIZ...I DUNNO HOW TO DESCribe today...morning till now.....stil no mood for the whole day.....all oso bcz of thm!!!!!!now oli i know...better i go work thn staying at home.....dem fuck bored!!!!!!!!!

~i strted to miss my scol leh.....wat can i do huh!!!!!my mny....dunno y juz got out...no in!!!so,now i pokai agn ahhhhhh!!!!haizzz......yyyyyyy....i wan mny leh >.<
my sickness strted agn......

new year??

~how life every1????stil good......today finalli last day osf work...im gonna hlday for 1 week......jz like still at scol hlday wan....lol...although a long holiday...bt quite will be veri bz coz of the new year.....tat day i jz gt my 1st salary....bt y on the next day i pokai alrdy....=.=!!!! haizzzz.....i duno y ah...tis world everytg oso talking bout money...money....n money....no money relli can do ntg lo.......haizzzz...how i wish tat i can get more money than wat i gt now......plz.z......i wan money leh.......
MONEY IS NOT A PROBLEM BUT NO MONEY IS A PROBLEM.......=(

~NEW year oso nt yt do any preparation lo...frm tat day shoppg,shppg n keep on shppg......bt canot buy aniting...i tink ah tis year new year worst thn last year lo...
coz no mud to buy aniting ......n more worst is i cant fnd a frn to cmpny me......how sad it is....=( n more worst is....i hv to seperate my money ahhhhhhhh!!!how hurt it is......haiz....n time oso a problem....yyyyyyyyyy.....tis yr all oso a probz huh!!!!
i reli not satishfied for wt's hppng now lo!!!!so pek chek lie...............

~as i feel.....last yr whn i sitting for spm time.....it's rmnd me a lot of memories...sad....n happi....n now.....nw yr oso d same....sad.....is jz sad...no happi i tink...bt if hv oso a bit oli lo........last yr i can stl rmbr wt hppn....at valentine day.......y....i stl rmbr it???can aniting let me to forget bout the sad memories???coz i wanna....be happi for tis cuming new year...................

~bro told me today.......dun becume so sad......be open minded so tat u can be happi bek...ya lo....i dunno y till now i feel so sad la........i duno....although tis mnth whn i strt wrkg i feel happi bek...bt sumtimes whn i heard bek the love song.....i will strt to get sick bek...n i rather turn off tat fuck song!!!!!!!especially.... S----A song!!!!i hate it!!!!i know i love it so much...n i addict to it...last time....bt now everytg change!!!!!i hate!!!i hate!!!i hate!!!!!
i relli need to thx to my bro tat brg me to a funni job lo...everyday v talking nonsence n laughing crazily.....haha....the most funniest is i dun understnd y....im wrkg in a phone shop...n ppl keep askg me whtr v sell BREAD???ENO DRINKS???ask nvm...bt afte thy gt the ting thy will cm bek to my shop for paying....WT A JOKE????hahahahaa????(bt now i got no mud to laugh dy).......thn thy will making me n my bro...laugh n keep laughing....v juz phone shop leh...not shoppng cmplx lo......haizz...bt duno y my boss wont laugh for tat.....??=.=?? mayb he alrdy saw so mani gua???thn tat day...i wrkg my ownself coz my bro gt sick...i strted to sked...bt luckily ntg happn la.......THX GOD.....tat wdnsday went pasar mlm wth my bros n his frn......dem long lo....whn i reach the end of the pasar mlm...it's alrdy 1am...bt so happi la....can hv a nice walk.....THX BROS....for bringing me out k....
now i tink bout all the probz oso i wn go die liao...i wan go langgar to tat stpd wall lo.......!!!!stdy or wrk....stdy or wrk....stdy or wrk????haiz.......tat day boss gv me sum advice la...he ask me go stdy bt y he gv a big responds to me???weird leh...i oso a bit shock????haha.....THX BOSS.....i thx so much ppl rit????hehe...nwdays...whn i out i will search for a phone shop....to see the phone price....or i iwll go to treat the ppl like how the customers treat me lo.....=D
my mum n bro oso ask me dun do like tat....bt i will do it...haha.....=p


~now.........everyt i said im gonna strt a new life.....i duno tat new life...whn will strt....i will try hard to strt the new life.....i wil try.....i know i need sum time.....i will listen to my bro advice 做人看开点吧。。。不要那么固泽。。。。。haiz...tryg my best lo.............没人说过。。。在一起时间比较长的人。。不会分开。。。也没人说过。。。。在一起比较短时间的人会分开。。。这世上都没永远。。为什么还要有FOREVER 这个子呢？？？？我不明白我自己还在等什么。。。。？？

no lov3 no cri3s.....

~tis is wt i wrote for my bluetooth name.....sesat rit???haizzz....bt it's quite true wt....without luv...v wont cry rit....
If u wanna gt hurt fell in luv....sure u will knw wt's the feelg......
这世上都没永远。。为什么还会有‘情’这个字呢？！
~can sum1 lend me 1 BRAIN hlp me to solve probz.....
l3nd m3 1 EAR to hear my probz...
lend me 1 HEART to share my pain...=(
lend me 1 MOUTH to help me talk gud tings.....
lend me 1 HAND to brg him bek to me.......
~ysterday...read 1 newspaper talk bout relationship...
It's said tat the ppl tat gt hurt b4 oli can luv ppl....
~有被伤过，经历过的人才有值格去爱别人。。。
～在二十岁时。。选择去爱上不同attitude 的恋人。。
～20岁时，学会
～人都是跌跌撞撞。。才学回人生怎样走的吗。。不是吗？？有谁没被伤过呢？？
p/s:i knw my chnese so bad...but tis few words reli so meaning.......

felt sori.......=(

~today,felt so sori wth my bro lie....he sick til wan die bt stil ned to wrk wth me....if i hv know all the ting at shop perhaps he can go bek n rest now....i gt ask hm to bek...bt he dunwan...haiz....i so sked whn c ppl like tis ....sick n mabuk ppl....i sked if sddnly duno wt hppn to thm....>.＜hope u gt well fast bro.....
~nowadays,wrkg...wrkg stil kep on wrkg....i ned mny...tatls y so obssessed to work now...afte my wrk life strt oli i know tat...our boss is jz like our scol teachr lo...n now oli i knw oh....scl disiplin reli gt sum use for us outsde hre....tat day whn i went for the undang course...their disiplin r more strict thn whn v at scl wan....haiz...i oso shock dy tat day.....
~quite hapi wth myself coz i pass the test jz for one time oli.... haha..nw juz waiting for the drivg...hope cn pass oso laa...hmmmm...nw,if u ask me wrk or stdy btr..i would say of coz stdy btr la...cz v can talk laugh gossip n do anitg tat reli crazily.....work...jz kep on serve...serve n serve....cum,let's dream v wil be the boss one day....hehe....reli u wil knw tat tis wrld actuali ful of so many weird weird ppl.....tis my 1st wrk...can tel tat gud enaf la....=D
dun0 la nw is too early prdct o wt...??
~bt stl hv a probz nw...mum askg me to chge wrk....haiz...everyday tink of tis probz....i sure canot sleep at nite....i dunwan to chge tis wrk...dun force me to chge plz......reli sufferg nw cz i stl plnng wt to do future???stdy wrk????both oso i want bt....stdy...i duno wt to stdy lo.....i jz interest in music oli....thy command me go for bussiness managemnt....haiz....so many way....so mani choice i reli duno how to chse.....if 1 step wrg..i knw life gona 'crack' .......n my head gonna crack!!!!
~*¥§€% CAN SUM1 HELP ME????I STRT TO MISS HIM AGN.....WT SHOULD I DO??wt can i do....since tat day 1st day of wrk i saw hm...til nw alrdy 1mnth...i stl hvnt c him......
haizzz...i cnt undrstnd y i stl tinkg bout hm.....不是说好了要放弃吗？？？
真的那么难吗？？？我真的回会开始想你了吗？？

＝D

～爱情九十九分都是假的，只有一分是真的。。。只有痛才是真的。。。
那种痛。。。你明明没有伤。。没流血。。。可是那种痛却实实在在让你无法离开它。。。

3jan.....new life begin.....

~yeah....stl wanna said heppi new yr!!!2day every1 wil b bz ba..... coz scol openg day....bt tis yr r reli special coz....nt including me to go scol... haha!!!
Hwevr....tody every1 strt scl....n i strt 2 wrk....hmm....bt goin wrk wth my cousn...luckily nt by myslf... Every1 jia you ba!!!