2nd labour day*off*

原谅一个人是容易的， 但再次信任，就没那么容易。 暖一颗心需要很多年， 凉一颗心只要一瞬间。 活着，就要善待自己。 别跑到别人的生命里当插曲。 不管是友情还是爱情， 你来，我热情相拥。 你走，我坦然放手！ 不属于我的东西，我不要。 不是真心给我的东西，我不稀罕。 很多时候，宁愿被误会，也不想去解释。 信与不信，就在你一念之间。 懂我的人，何必解释。 我向往这样的心境，不记得失! 有时候，这个世界很大很大， 大到我们一辈子都没有机会遇见。 有时候，这个世界又很小很小， 小到一抬头就看见了你的笑脸。 所以 遇见时，请一定要感激； 相爱时，请一定要珍惜； 转身时，请一定要优雅； 挥别时，请一定要微笑； 因为一转身，可能一辈子也不会再相见了。

POPULAR BOOKSTORE~~

hi everyone....is almost 5 months afte my last update on my blog.... there are few things i want to said about.... ~1st:i left the pain....i left the place and the person i love so much and had growth wth me tgthr..... i left on 12/12/2013...officially left wth the company of my beloved cousin.......but the most dissapointed was he alrdy gv up me on 22/11/2013...why...i really dun understand...and at last he still gvg me a cheque wth an amount almost rm2000.why until last minutes he still think that i follow him for this 2 years..is because of money...i told him a thousand times im not someone tat cheap and i dunwan the money....and tats y...the cheque i still keep until now...i promise myself i will hand it to him face to face afte one time......i PROMISE....juz now passby one of my new fren blog...it wrotes...‘就是因为我们深深爱过对方，也深深伤害过对方，所以我们会不去最当初的我们’i duno it is true o not...but is so meaning for me...Afte i left thr...i keep on tink..keep on find reason why he wan to do tis...why i wan to do like this....i keep using the positive way to keep tinking for ntg becum more worst....i din hope much now...i juz wish he still will chat wth me even 2sentences..better than he dun do anything when he saw me....i told him when the day i met him bek was the day i alrdy becum a better person...i keep on keep fit nowadays...hope i can do it.....i still remember that day i went out wth his cousin...and i told her this story...she is totally shock bout it...and yeaaa..i told my cousin sister too//i juz duno y...sddnly my tears drop down.....deepest inside from my heart??do i still love him??or is it because i alwiz tink tat y afte i do so much..but i dun get my good revenge????wat happen to me????where is the problem....???on one nite me,cousn,n his fren....(tis world are so small bcz his fren was my cust n we met at popular)i fetch him bek to his house which is above my shop...tis half year i dun brave engh to go tat area bcz i dunwan myself to get pain n tink bek wat had hpn.....and tat nite i went thr...i saw thr are many cigarrette around the floor>>..doesnt him alrdy stop smoking???or tat cigarrete does not belong to him?? i am wondering....n i juz left a paper thr...hope they get blessed...and it was great bcz some of the ppl thr still remember who are me...im relli miss every moments we spend thr...i relli miss it....and i relli miss u.......how are u??? ~2nd:start on 1/4/2014,i start wrkg on popular bookstores....as an admin....first was so pity...it was such a hurt for me....the ppl who is teaching me are juz like me,....juz like how i teach ppl.....and i keep askg myself...is it bcz last time i treat my staff too bad...tats y i gt my revenge now......????errrmmmmm...maybe yes....and sddnly i tink that once upon a time i told my boss b4...'ntg is easy at the beginning' haha....now i know wats the meaning.....it is easy to say the word...but when i reli feel it...i juz cant take it.......but i told myself...afte tis everytg will be ok....but still thr was an aoh...treating every1 very nicely...told me tat in this world ntg is perfect rit??i said ya...and everytime when i make mistakes...he will told me...tats is how we learn ...new things....i know im so blessed to hv ppl teach me...n im still behave so rude to the ppl who teach me..i keep on reminding myself....and now...it is getting much better...and im getting much blessed bcz when i get ppl mumble thr was some one who back me up...thank you very much to them..however,this is juz the starting...have see afte a few months...sometimes what we see are not wat they think....i will be much more careful.....and thr is a funny guy in the bookstore...erm..can say tat evry1 was funny in there...haha...but untill today only i realize...maybe face expression thy are looking funny...but behind...thy have a lot of complains...juz like today..i get a phone call from a cust complain bout us...and afte tat i listen to complain from one of my collagues.....only i realize....this world is not tat easy.....ok,bek to tat guy..he is the one who someimes will fetch me bek to home...all was start from him when he ask me to stay even hvnt finis work..than yi hong tell him to ftch me bek...evrytg was juz start like tat......even he said wanna brg me go work on morning..but is too early lo.........and until tat day i cry in front of him...he told me....家人是最好的，离家出走是一件很傻的事。。。thx for ur advice na...but my family was not like tat...and he even tell me wat he did for himself n the family afte a few days....he ask wat hpn until now..thx god...hv someone will tc bout me.....but 不是每个对你好的人都没有目的的。。。。。im relli sked to live in tis world...ystdy i work wth thm until 11pm...my manager asked me to go bek...bcz late nite alrdy...haha...thz every1 thx GOD....i juz wan to live a simple life like tis......its enough for me..=D WHY HUH????when i start to come over to work...evry1 is leaving??haizzz...especially is jing min...afte u left who wan to company me to eat leh??? T_T sad ahhhh.... ~3rd : famlily was a very headache things for me...as i said...im very tired to keep preserving this relationship if it is keep on broken everytime when afte i preserve it...so,i make decision to gv up...and u all juz do la watever u wan to do...i DON CARE ANYMORE!!!he told me‘做回自己,证明给他们看’ well wat he said was right...wat i did all tis time oso i din selfish like you all...NEVER!!but u alwiz juz knw how to said i selfish..now u open ur eyes n see who is the one selfish geh...!!now u see....when i start to bek wth my fren...i know u all will start to tink something more than that...i know u all very care bout me..but tis is not the way lo......u wan to care bout ur son..u tink ur sonis more important than you...??i dun care....but juz dun let me know tat u all think more than wat i do....its unfair plz!!!i dun gv any hope on this family anymore bcz i find out that every1 is selfish only.... ~~nowadays,untill 11pm..my battery will automatically kong...duno y so tired..i enjoy doing this work....i dun care how is the salary or wat im doin(muz be aceptable la)i see the environment and wat i learnt more than those ppl who only look at salary...NO.....I will keep stand on myself.....im not some one that o anything oso bcz of money plz.......im very happi to make new frens at bookstore...i hope everytg is ok.....GOD...thznks for so much u do for me..althou i can consider to be happi now..but in deepest y heart im still hope ah foo will forgive me..he will be my life biggest regret...i know i should not hurt him that much........im so sorri :-/ hmmmmm....today i found out something n i wan myself to stand wthin a distance wth him since everytg are still under control....... GOODNITE EVERYONE AND I HOPE I WILL HAVE SOLUTION TO SOLVE ALL THE PROBLEM.....SANZ ****~原来了解我的人从来都没离开过我.....im so blessed to have a fren that known for more than 10 years..i hope our frenship will be counting on and on and on....im blessed to have u in my life....=D****

2013=>2014

~its such a long time i din update my blog alrdy....today is duno how many days how many hours how many minutes how many second we been apart.....but all i wan to said is im still feel so sad,hurt and even guilty....i reli dunwan to forget u...i dunwan to hate u n i dunwan us to becum stranger....its such a long time i din heard ur voice scolding me...talkking wth me...this is more painful than die....im reli so blur now...i did not know hw to do...i wont take ur money...n i dun hv any money to celebrate cny tis year... this is first year i go thru cny like tis...... ~however,u get tgthr wth meeling was a reality....and tis reality can maintain how long...i reli duno....do u knw i hate those church ppl???y thy have to brainwash u until u gv up me....?Foo,i juz wan to said..no matter wat...i wont walk any step far away.. juz like the time i started to know u....i wont leave u...do u know when kelvin cum out n try to brainwash all of us...u are the one who save me bek....n tat time u reli be wth my side n support me....i duno y i din save u!y i dun realize abit early?maybe if i realize it n let u know..mayb i can tel u...or ask sumone to help bcz even i tell u..u will juz tink of the church ppl.....u reli help me too much in my life....other dun remember nvm...but i will remember it in the rest of life....as i said i will let my children know all bout it...tats is y i reli duno how to hate u....no matter wat they said....i wont hate u..i will wait the day v bek to fren..... ~in tis one month...i keep remind myself...all he do like tis perhaps is juz his plan to let me hurt all at once...he still care bout me...he still helping me...he do all tis is juz because he wan me to stand up n becum the real me....i do not know wat is the point...but every day i keep telling myself tis....i wont let him dissapointed....but u be with meeling is anthr stories...y u hv to lie me???u can juz tel me u alrdy hv anthr gf....u do not hv to tell me u wan to be alone.....when i find out..im relli shocked do u know???!!!!!i do not know wat u r doin nowadays....mayb u r heppily be wth her...mayb u juz go on ur life?? do u know how suffer i am everyday??im not brave enough to walk out to see the world...always u will help me to go thru every difficulties...y tis time u dunwan help me!!??WHY??i felt so stupid tat im the one who try so hard to make the relation btwn u n jason to be bek normal....but now im the one who destroy it myself...i alwiz tot tat y u wan gv othr to destroy our relation by urself????WHY?? ~everyday i juz hope there will be the day everything tat will be fine....i alwiz tell myself i dun care whthr can be wth u o not... i juz wan u dun leave me...help me in all the matters....i dun know wat u r thinking now..mayb u tink that im the evil..i dun even appreciate ur good deed to me...no its not....i will forever remember it...n pay u bek one day..i hope u wait me...i hope u dun hate me....and i hope u dun gv up me plz.......wtht u ....i reli duno hw to survive........ ~all ppl juz said the same.....if not bcz of kelvin all tis wont hapn until like tis...u also told me bout it??dont u remember??? i duno y u hv to blame me wth all the wrong....i tell myself nvm...bcz one day u will wake up n realize me again....you told me tat without me at shop u live more happily...i dun even know tat is truth or u juz wan me to gv up....but all i wan to tell u is..i dun heppi at all...i juz can keep on regret y tat time i muz argue wth u....y im so stupid....??????if i left on september tat time..mayb all wont becum like tis le....or u are planning to chasing me out from the start???everytime u wan to chase me out..i heard from ur mouth i do not wat to do..im realli hurt until i duno wer could i find a place to let all my tears go.... ~now alrdy 2014....but im still crying..all those memories...we have...can u reli juz leave it like tat??no matter wat it is...i will alwiz remember the first word u told me those time...u said no matter wat hpn in future 'im ur best worker'!! foo....i miss u