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~haiyayayayayayayayaya......very sad ahhh todayyyyy...YYYYYYYY!!!!y im sooooo stupid wan ahhhhhh....dem u!!!!hw cn u play like tis.......money man...!!!izit so funny??
i dun tink so loooo.....u wear expensive talk expensive ....bt got wat fuck use...!!??
buying thing like shit......if u cnt afford tat u dun act like u r expensive laaaaa...
watthe fuck....next time whn u cum bek....no matter wat u wan to do....i wont layan u anymore.......u go eat shit la......cb...!!!haizzzz...afte gv tis uncle gek once ahhh i felt like crying dy...so sad ahhhhhhhhhh....hw can i b tis stupid....the whole day i felt stupid lo.....only i knw eventhou alrdy a year im here....i still cnt help anything more lo.....i feel useless....wt hpn actualli.....?izit bcz of my interest??
or i get bored??or bcz i gt too more freedom??haizzzz....im so confused la....i felt reli didssapointed whenever he was so busy i cnt help anytg lo..... :'(summore all d customer oso buli me wannn.... :"(

~today he said tat i waste time....waste money.....at tat moment....i reli wanna drop my tear...at tat moment im tinking.....am i reli waste time n money....??if like taty im still walk on....shud i givv up n stop everyting now.....im reli din tink of it.......my interest reli not in study....study is not my path.....relliiii...thn he ask wat u wanna do afte finis diplome....y....y...y...all d thing he asked i cnt ans at all....tat moment...i reli blur thr...i juz wanna drop my tear....i reli wish sumone was thr to understand me...i even dun undrstnd wt im doin now...afte diploma wt im onna dooo...wat im gonna do....i reli duno....is tat im wastg my time n my parents money now.........................
y u alwiz could read wt im tinking n y alwiz i duno wat n how i cud ans u....who r u in my life????

~i juz felt tat im using ur ting so much....ur phone ur laptop even sum of my stuff oso given by u....world is so complicated....r u reli gud...or u juz wan me to stay...???juz using each other...i dunwan to stay in tis condition lo...is better i go find other job outside n play with so much of ppl outside thr....
whn i tld everyone bout my job...every1 said u r so gud n is hard to find sum1 like u.......but i duno is it real gud...or juz a play to make me stay....i need to grow laaaaa....world is complicated....i alwiz tot tat u r relii guddd...bt afte alll i m doubting whether my guess is true or wat...bt whnever i said i wan chge my job thy will said....y u shud change u got so gud place....haiiiizzz...wat shud i do...change or dun change.....sumhow....sumtimes i asked myself y i stay at my first job so long??izit bcz first time i cum out n work...or.....???haiiiiizzzzz...im confusing....................................................
his two sentence could make me becum so confused........................confused....

~in d car i heard sumting more sad....who is tat ppl for u actualli???gf??wife??partner??fren??best fren??or a fren tat more than fren but low than lover...??u like her??or she like u???who u told me tat sentence i reli juz wanna shout at u...i wan to take off for that four daysssss....is no point im sitting thr....i know.... :'( how could i face it.....how??why wanna treat me like tis...??at least gv me a ans....im tired of gueesssing n i nedd to do a decide....plzz la.....tis follow thurs will be a veryy dissapointed day for me....i know...................................