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hi everyone....is almost 5 months afte my last update on my blog.... there are few things i want to said about.... ~1st:i left the pain....i left the place and the person i love so much and had growth wth me tgthr..... i left on 12/12/2013...officially left wth the company of my beloved cousin.......but the most dissapointed was he alrdy gv up me on 22/11/2013...why...i really dun understand...and at last he still gvg me a cheque wth an amount almost rm2000.why until last minutes he still think that i follow him for this 2 years..is because of money...i told him a thousand times im not someone tat cheap and i dunwan the money....and tats y...the cheque i still keep until now...i promise myself i will hand it to him face to face afte one time......i PROMISE....juz now passby one of my new fren blog...it wrotes...‘就是因为我们深深爱过对方，也深深伤害过对方，所以我们会不去最当初的我们’i duno it is true o not...but is so meaning for me...Afte i left thr...i keep on tink..keep on find reason why he wan to do tis...why i wan to do like this....i keep using the positive way to keep tinking for ntg becum more worst....i din hope much now...i juz wish he still will chat wth me even 2sentences..better than he dun do anything when he saw me....i told him when the day i met him bek was the day i alrdy becum a better person...i keep on keep fit nowadays...hope i can do it.....i still remember that day i went out wth his cousin...and i told her this story...she is totally shock bout it...and yeaaa..i told my cousin sister too//i juz duno y...sddnly my tears drop down.....deepest inside from my heart??do i still love him??or is it because i alwiz tink tat y afte i do so much..but i dun get my good revenge????wat happen to me????where is the problem....???on one nite me,cousn,n his fren....(tis world are so small bcz his fren was my cust n we met at popular)i fetch him bek to his house which is above my shop...tis half year i dun brave engh to go tat area bcz i dunwan myself to get pain n tink bek wat had hpn.....and tat nite i went thr...i saw thr are many cigarrette around the floor>>..doesnt him alrdy stop smoking???or tat cigarrete does not belong to him?? i am wondering....n i juz left a paper thr...hope they get blessed...and it was great bcz some of the ppl thr still remember who are me...im relli miss every moments we spend thr...i relli miss it....and i relli miss u.......how are u??? ~2nd:start on 1/4/2014,i start wrkg on popular bookstores....as an admin....first was so pity...it was such a hurt for me....the ppl who is teaching me are juz like me,....juz like how i teach ppl.....and i keep askg myself...is it bcz last time i treat my staff too bad...tats y i gt my revenge now......????errrmmmmm...maybe yes....and sddnly i tink that once upon a time i told my boss b4...'ntg is easy at the beginning' haha....now i know wats the meaning.....it is easy to say the word...but when i reli feel it...i juz cant take it.......but i told myself...afte tis everytg will be ok....but still thr was an aoh...treating every1 very nicely...told me tat in this world ntg is perfect rit??i said ya...and everytime when i make mistakes...he will told me...tats is how we learn ...new things....i know im so blessed to hv ppl teach me...n im still behave so rude to the ppl who teach me..i keep on reminding myself....and now...it is getting much better...and im getting much blessed bcz when i get ppl mumble thr was some one who back me up...thank you very much to them..however,this is juz the starting...have see afte a few months...sometimes what we see are not wat they think....i will be much more careful.....and thr is a funny guy in the bookstore...erm..can say tat evry1 was funny in there...haha...but untill today only i realize...maybe face expression thy are looking funny...but behind...thy have a lot of complains...juz like today..i get a phone call from a cust complain bout us...and afte tat i listen to complain from one of my collagues.....only i realize....this world is not tat easy.....ok,bek to tat guy..he is the one who someimes will fetch me bek to home...all was start from him when he ask me to stay even hvnt finis work..than yi hong tell him to ftch me bek...evrytg was juz start like tat......even he said wanna brg me go work on morning..but is too early lo.........and until tat day i cry in front of him...he told me....家人是最好的，离家出走是一件很傻的事。。。thx for ur advice na...but my family was not like tat...and he even tell me wat he did for himself n the family afte a few days....he ask wat hpn until now..thx god...hv someone will tc bout me.....but 不是每个对你好的人都没有目的的。。。。。im relli sked to live in tis world...ystdy i work wth thm until 11pm...my manager asked me to go bek...bcz late nite alrdy...haha...thz every1 thx GOD....i juz wan to live a simple life like tis......its enough for me..=D WHY HUH????when i start to come over to work...evry1 is leaving??haizzz...especially is jing min...afte u left who wan to company me to eat leh??? T_T sad ahhhh.... ~3rd : famlily was a very headache things for me...as i said...im very tired to keep preserving this relationship if it is keep on broken everytime when afte i preserve it...so,i make decision to gv up...and u all juz do la watever u wan to do...i DON CARE ANYMORE!!!he told me‘做回自己,证明给他们看’ well wat he said was right...wat i did all tis time oso i din selfish like you all...NEVER!!but u alwiz juz knw how to said i selfish..now u open ur eyes n see who is the one selfish geh...!!now u see....when i start to bek wth my fren...i know u all will start to tink something more than that...i know u all very care bout me..but tis is not the way lo......u wan to care bout ur son..u tink ur sonis more important than you...??i dun care....but juz dun let me know tat u all think more than wat i do....its unfair plz!!!i dun gv any hope on this family anymore bcz i find out that every1 is selfish only.... ~~nowadays,untill 11pm..my battery will automatically kong...duno y so tired..i enjoy doing this work....i dun care how is the salary or wat im doin(muz be aceptable la)i see the environment and wat i learnt more than those ppl who only look at salary...NO.....I will keep stand on myself.....im not some one that o anything oso bcz of money plz.......im very happi to make new frens at bookstore...i hope everytg is ok.....GOD...thznks for so much u do for me..althou i can consider to be happi now..but in deepest y heart im still hope ah foo will forgive me..he will be my life biggest regret...i know i should not hurt him that much........im so sorri :-/ hmmmmm....today i found out something n i wan myself to stand wthin a distance wth him since everytg are still under control....... GOODNITE EVERYONE AND I HOPE I WILL HAVE SOLUTION TO SOLVE ALL THE PROBLEM.....SANZ ****~原来了解我的人从来都没离开过我.....im so blessed to have a fren that known for more than 10 years..i hope our frenship will be counting on and on and on....im blessed to have u in my life....=D****