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~so long tm dy....today i stl put my emotion as sad.....i oso duno y...today i at shop tm sddnly i rmnd bek sumtg....alrdy 6months.....so fast 6 months passssss.......i waited for 6 months....n stil i cnt gt wt i wan.....izit askg me to forgt hm...??ask me 2 give up...??
6 mnths jz pass like tat ....i xhear frm hm....even xsee him oso....=(goshhhh....how sad it is...sound like.....wahhhh....so fast alrdy 6 months...half yr leh...bt tis 6 mnths not too long la...mayb stl gt ppl gt more thn me rt????haizzzzzzzzzz.....how nw???afte is tl nd go ns for 3months lehhh....anitg cn hppn in 3mnths u knw...no1 can guess...rt??n im worryg...no1 cn undrstnd tis.......haizzz...today...7 of april 2011 oli i knw v hd seperate for 6months....!!!y im stl waitg oh???
god,im so upset nw....help me plz....=(

~today stil a very shit day.....4mnths i wrk...i cry for 2 times...ok laaaa rt???i oso duno y 2day i cn becm so angry...bt i juz feel un fair lo...y tat stupid scol can treat ppl like shit!!!!the whole reli fucking wan laaaaaaa.....!!!i veli veli sad n angry today.....bt stl jz forgt bout it laaaa....cz thy all wnt knw my feelg....reli i tel...thy wont!!!!!thn afte bek to shop li saw my bro n boss...bcm rilax bit dy la...if nt ahhhh..i oso duno wt wil hppn lo..maybe bth of thm...nt jz both of thm...evry1 was shock!!!!includg myself oso shock y i wud do like tat lo....haizzz....=(

~nowadays i fel like my frn r far away frm me lo....she wnt ask bout me...she wont care bout me....wei,i reli need her leh...y cnt she understnd my feelg...i dunwan been treated like usually she treating othrs ppl.....i hate tat lo...!!!!!y i cnt jz be special a bit...bit oso cnt ahhhhhhh....=( tis frn reli made me upset...i jz sked 1 day i wl broke wth hr.....reli sked......

~tat day go tarc thr to passup the form...nw,waiting their rply...u knw wt...i tl every1 i xgo to stdy la....reli every1!!!!!bt thy jz dun belif me....even my boss oso ask me to stdy hard.....haizzzz...my frn tld me tat whn register tm mz pay RM1000++....WTF!!!!whr cn i gt the money man!!!!sucks la...i xwan my mum n dad to worry...1st thy worry whthr i cn entr colllege o nt...nw,thy worrying whthr i cn gt scholarship or nt...worrying bout the money...worry bout tis n ta.....m god!!!1i reli xwan thm to worry la....thn for wat i go stdy!!!i sked if i stop halfway mns how....thy put too much of hope in me....i alrdy felt sori for the spm result dyy........y now anthr ting for me to feel wori..i didn;t go college nvm...for wat i wanna go....i xlike stdy la wei......!!!!now ahhh...except thn shout god...i xno wat else i can shout....GOD.....help me plz...i reli dunwan stdy!!!


~well,my wrk srl goin on as usual...bt tis month sad bit la...coz jason last month dy...i knw nt me oli who sad....my boss oso i tink so la.....=D i xundrstnd y jason like tat ....meybe he tink wrk own bussiness mre better....if me..i oso duno hw to chse...coz 1 is the boss tat reli gud...cnt fnd at outsde dy..1more is his own dad rt????nw....i oso duno wt wil hppn cz im goin to ns....afte bek frm ns...duno whr to wrk....although he said his door alwiz open...hahax...but he duno mayb whn i bek dy he wnt nd us anymre??perhaps laaaaaa....
u knw rt...me....the more i feel comfort....the morei wl feel hard to leave....so,every1 jz dun treat me so gud la...if nt i duno wt wl hppn.......bt nw jz cn...wish my bro luck...i wl miss hm...cz the day wrk wth hm relii fel protected n happpi...hahahahaha....=D if u away dy....i oso duno who to teach me all the tg......n to my boss.....he wl b fine rt???=D
whn i strtd go thr to wrk...he teach me so much of ting leh...tat y i fel like wahhh....tis ppl so nice leh...lol although smtm he wil scold us la...=( bt reli thx la my boss...i knw he jz wan us to be gud rt??i hope so la....=p whn i ask for a part time job at nite...thy all said i gila dy....even hm oso tl lke tat....i wl rmbr wt he tld us,,,,,,=)

~tat all for tonite.....i reli stress nwadays.....n.....i hope i cn gt bek wt i wan.....
gudnites....=)
cheer up...cz mayb tomoro wl be mre better rt...??